Saturday, 1 November 2008
12:03:21 AM (GMT)
ok, well i havnt beeen happy since school started
it has a huge thing to do with friends
i just recently got my heart broken, and i gave up on crushes
so i dont like anyone anymore
also one of my friend actually likes all of my crushes and it sucks
and now all my crushes hate me
and its weird about her,
cause she always first, and she gets what she wants
and im sick of it!
and another one of my friends doesnt take anything about me seriously
she wouldnt care if i hated life! unless i stop being her friend
i think thats all she cares about
cause she has "no friends"
and im always left out! ALWAYS
well tonight i was at my friend raerae's friends house
and only a couple of times i felt left out but there was raerae mason
connor and audrey
that always made me feel better, i think they are real friends
and i really feel unwanted at school
and i have to be really boring and the responcible one in
my group of friends
so i cant be myself!! and it really sucks
ive never got to be myself, unless its online
or tonight, i could really be myself
i dont know why! but i think people hate me
and i really feel bad about the way i look and act because of
i feel really bad, and i dont want to!
i want to feel better for once!
i want to actually like myself! without a single complant!
but no! i cant ever do that! and i dont know why!
so right now i want to try to hang out with good friends like
Mason, Rae Rae, Connor
but i feel that im just interfering! with mason, connor,
raerae and them
i feel like i dont belong
but they are really awesome and
i dont know anymore.............i dont know
if you can help me, please try
i dont want to feel this way anymore
Last edited: 1 November 2008