Tuesday, 2 September 2008
06:44:24 PM (GMT)
I am just a girl who once upon a time fell in love with a boy.As that saying
goes,"you can only push a girl out of your life for so long until she walks out and
leaves on her own". Well, thats what I had to do.Broke my heart, but it was for the
I am just a girl who's learned a lot in her not so long life so far.
Beautiful girl with her gorgeous eyes has a hidden world of hurt & lies.
As a child I grew up with mixed signals, mixed feelings. I was always told i was
ugly,a brat, freak, loser, stupid, fat, etc. As I got older, boys started telling me
i was pretty, hot, etc. My current boyfriend says he can't believe that i don't think
i am pretty, but its not my fault, and i really dont think i am. I've grown adapted
to hearing i was ugly and so on and so forth.
When I was four, my parents divorced, and my only real friend in life was my
grandmother, until she died when i was in third grade. Granted, I had some good
friends, but still to this day I can never talk about whats wrong with me. When she
died, that's when everything went wrong.
About the time when I was in fourth grade, my cousin/ godfather abused me. In about
fifth grade, thats when I told someone. But no one did anything. They always took his
side. Now I think they see that it was very possible & true that he would do such a
thing, since he is/was such a druggie, messed up guy.
That was about that time that I started cutting, that habit continued for about three
Finally the abuse stopped and things were better.
A couple of years later, family issues continued to get worse and worse, and then my
grandfather died, which made family problems EVEN worse.
I learned a lot of things through the years, and here I am now.
I had a very interesting summer, in which I found&lost love, met back up with my best
friends, &met a lot of new people. A new school year has begun, and following that
will be a new year in which I will make the most of my life.