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a missunderstood soul pleading for helpCategory: sadness
Sunday, 15 April 2007
02:39:46 AM (GMT)
i love anything dark and evil. i love seeing the sight of blood and the sensation
you get after seeing someone die in the most unimaginable way it may seem a bit
phsycotic but that's just the way i am. i live so far from my family and my first
friends. i feel as though they are slipping through my fingers bit by bit each day.
and as they slip through my fingers i watch them float slowly away in my tears of
solitude and difference from others. the characters i love the most in anime are the
ones that are missunderstood and live in a sad and painful past. they are the ones
that i can relate to the most. my past is dark and lonesome with no one to
understand who i really am and how bad i feel deep inside. and as i watch everything
i once knew and loved slip through my fingers i stand and cry bloody tears of
loneliness and sorrow to my first friends i am the most frendliest thing but deep
inside lays a poor tortured victim forced to live in sorrow and missery for the rest
of my days. i'm so different from everyone else when no one is looking i cry sad and
sorrowful tears. behind the face of a friendly perfect student lies the tear
stricken face of a misserable maiden doomed to a life of loneliness and sorrow. the
happy life i once lived is long gone as i feel the love of my family dissapear from
my heart and on to my sisters and as i watch my friends move on to bigger and
"better" things i lay behind tossed aside to be left behind and forgotten. the one
thing that i have left is the deep obsession i acquirred for anime and as everything
slips through i become divulged in anime the one thing that has people that i can
actually relate to. there are some times when i feel as though i was put on this
earth just because i fell from heaven while others were gently placed i fell and
crashed with a hard impact. i still to this day feel like a fallen angel with a dark
soul. to those who red this do not feel alarmed or mistake me for bieng some sort of
emo just pity me and my missunderstood dark and lonely soul before i slip away
forever to never be rescued from the dark pit that i fell into for as we speak i am
clinging on for dear life trying not to fall in for if i do there is no turning back
i cannot and i will not climb back up.

all that can save me from a life of sorrow and loneliness is a true friend, one that
can help me up from the pit i try not to fall into.

and once again don't step on my fingers and push me in the hole don't call me an emo
just pity me.

again i wrote this in a different account

Frizzette says:   15 April 2007   279794  
Don't be sad.
I might sound a bit hippish, but there's always something to live for
in life.
akatsuki_gaara_ says :   17 April 2007   675649  
i guess


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