Saturday, 10 October 2009
05:54:55 PM (GMT)
I have to come to a conclusion of my thoughts that I have been on my mind a lot
recently, like how many friends I have, how many I can actually call friends, how
many of those friends can I actually talk to? I over-think everything but I realize
not that many people like me. I can pretty much name every "friend" I have, I wonder
how many out of all of them are actually my friends. its just too confusing to think
Also realizing that I over-analyze everything, by far. I think too hard about
pretty much everything and give in to my selfish desires, I'm a fuck-up at life, and
a lot of people know it. I have a very low self-esteem, I know I need to toughen up,
and I live to much in the past, I need to grow up, I am just too afraid too.
Many of you are fake, we are all fact, actually. But that's a different subject,
anyways. Sometimes I wonder who all talks behind my back when I'm not around, or even
when I am just not paying attention.
Again, like my other posts, I'm not going any where with this, I'm just venting and
going on about my own personal thoughts.
"I wanna find true happiness" <-- that right there, is impossible, there is no such
thing as true, endless happiness, the human brain gets tired of everything after
awhile. Thats why I have very little hope in even trying to find love, wait, thats
another thing, there is also no such thing as true teen love. You only like some A
The game of love: No one wins, everyone loses, all it is...
Ahh fuck itt, I'm done.