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Saturday, 2 February 2008
12:09:23 AM (GMT)
This is something I wrote a few days ago.. 


Look at us, a picture perfect family. Hardworking dad, sweet but stern mother,
adorable daughter.

And me. The odd one out. I don't belong and never will.

I'm not his. I am leftover from past connections. And it hurts.

Because he may love me to an extent, but he will never, never, love me like he
loves her.

And I've learned to accept this. I just want to belong.


For the first time in a long time, I feel truly happy.

I just sit and imagine- what if I kept this inside? Would he ever find out? And would
I ever expirience this feeling?

Love, the definition clearer than ever. Can you blame me?

This is the first time I've had the feeling returned to me. I'd give my life for his
happiness, does he know? I smile to myself. Another thing to confess.

Ok, Before and After are about two completly different things ok? ^^; Try to guess
what each are about, tell me what you make of these. ^^

‹Ðark Fox› says:   2 February 2008   267823  
Before it's about perfect family, who thinks everything it's all
right, while their daughter is suffering in silence.

After it's about love. Fear of confessing it, but also eagerness to

That's what I think
‹In♥His♥Shadow› says:   3 February 2008   654683  
Thas justb about right. ^^
‹In♥His♥Shadow› says:   3 February 2008   795537  
‹BoredomSquad› says:   12 February 2008   754476  
um i gots confused reading it lol XD

i ish a bad reader >_<
‹In♥His♥Shadow› says:   12 February 2008   858545  

Thats ok, my writing can be a bit confusing. I write at night, and I
wake up and read it and say "WTH was I thinking?"
‹BoredomSquad› says:   13 February 2008   539114  
well wats it about love ^_^
just asking.. is it about u and then the after is when u met me

wats it about ^_^
‹In♥His♥Shadow› says:   13 February 2008   265726  
Yeah. ^////^ 

The first part is kind of about my dad, and then the second is about
you. ^^

*glomps you*
‹BoredomSquad› says:   13 February 2008   364825  
i knew it ^_^
but i was to nervous to say it lol but i was right yay :D
"huggles with u" am i really that important to u ^///^ am i really the
reason why that love is more clear to u now ^_^
‹In♥His♥Shadow› says:   13 February 2008   452587  
^////^ You are so important to me, you have no idea. >/////<
‹BoredomSquad› says:   13 February 2008   334334  
:] "hugs u" thanks alex ^////^ ur important to me too :] i love u
‹In♥His♥Shadow› says:   13 February 2008   149428  
^//^ I love you too! *glomps you*
‹BoredomSquad› says:   13 February 2008   656753  
ur the best :]
‹In♥His♥Shadow› says:   13 February 2008   747318  
So are you. :D *kisses you*
‹BoredomSquad› says:   13 February 2008   218156  
nuh uh ^////////////^ ur better :D "huggles"
‹In♥His♥Shadow› says:   13 February 2008   223131  
Nuh uuuuh!! You are! >:3 *tickles yoU*
‹BoredomSquad› says:   13 February 2008   138436  
alex im ticklish >//////<!!!!! 
"falls over" ^/////////^ ur soo awesome ^_^
‹In♥His♥Shadow› says:   13 February 2008   663445  

*kisses you* Oh yeah, I'm the best thing EVER!

‹BoredomSquad› says:   13 February 2008   321815  
evil!! alex!! lol jk "hugs u" u ish an angel ^_^
‹In♥His♥Shadow› says:   13 February 2008   473377  
XD And your my angel. :D
‹BoredomSquad› says:   13 February 2008   355245  
nuh uh ^////////^ "hugs u" wow hehe we had another conversation on
another of ur diary entries woops ^_^
‹In♥His♥Shadow› says:   13 February 2008   244889  
XD Yeah, but I can't help it! 

If diaries could be popular, this one would be. :O
‹BoredomSquad› says:   13 February 2008   461341  
okay ^_^ "huggles u" i wuff u my alex-chan ^_^
‹In♥His♥Shadow› says:   13 February 2008   954462  
I luff my Gabe-kun teddy bear husband pants! X3
‹BoredomSquad› says:   13 February 2008   462866  
and i wuff u more my alex-chan teddy bunny wife shorts X3 lol ^_^
‹In♥His♥Shadow› says:   13 February 2008   286819  
OH thats it, I love you morererererere EST ER ISH! my Gabe-kun. ^^

I like my nickname. XD
‹BoredomSquad› says :   13 February 2008   497538  
yeah that is a clever name like spongebob squarepants hehe ^_^
alex-chan teddy bunny wife shorts ^/////^ okay do u want that nickname



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