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I don't know what to doCategory: not for alex
Friday, 13 July 2012
03:10:15 AM (GMT)
So, I cheated on my boyfriend, going to sum it up to that, because otherwise it's
way too long, and I felt like dieing, I told him that I cheated but, I didn't tell
him how I felt, and he promised to spend the 4th of July with me and not with our
"friends", and that he would never break up with me for anything, both lies. He
completely ignored me when he saw me on the fourth, and he ditched me, and hung out
with our "friends", but I'm never going to forget or forgive him for that, because of
that broken promise, my life flipped upside down, he cheated on me, and I'm not going
into details, but all of our "friends" were okay with him cheating on me, some of
them actually were happy he did. He broke up with me the next day, and I wanted to
tell him he's a goddam asshole, and I hated him, but I couldn't get anything to come
out of my mouth, so I told him to come back in 3-4 days. He did, but when he did he
dropped another giant bomb on me, he was dating the girl he cheated on me with, so I
gave him his stuff back and he left, but I told him he had to bring my things back
the next day, he did, and he decided to stop by like he did before he cheated on me,
and he asked me out again, I wanted to say no, I wanted him to hurt, the same way I
did, but I couldn't say no, so I ended up going out with him again, and he's still
dating that one girl, but that's because she's at camp, and he can't break up with
her. He also wouldn't tell anyone we were dating again especially our "friends"
because he didn't want them to hate him, and he also made them promise not to tell
one of our "friends" that I'm still okay with, because he knew she'd get beyond mad
if anyone told her that he was dating that one girl. I still have mixed emotions
towards him, I'm mad at him, he has to grow a pair, and tell everyone were back
together soon or I will, and that includes his mom, I don't care if she'll get mad,
if he actually loves me he'd be willing to put up with his mom flipping on him,
losing some "friends", it's not like anyone would kill him. But if he can't tell
EVERYONE that were back together, I don't think he deserves to have me, and he
complains about how I don't listen to him, well he listens to me about the same, so
he can't get all pissy over that, and he keeps bringing up my mistake, even though he
knows it makes me depressed, I'm amazed I haven't cut myself yet over this one, his
is almost as bad. But I'll continue this later.

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