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Wednesday, 13 June 2012
06:38:39 AM (GMT)
baby you ain't tryin', if i said i'm upbeat, i'd be lying, show me what you're hiding, but if this is love then watch me die on you. all i wanna do is make you happy. --------------------------------------- remember me? i can't remember if we're cool or in the mimddle of a fight. it doesn't matter anymore. it's been so long. i was just curious, how are you? better, i hope? even if i didn't make you better, i hope you are. i'm finding out i can't really do that. i don't make much of an impact. i can't save anyone. i've tried. i sort of want to apologize. but i'm not going to because i'm not sure i really did anything wrong. i'm also a tiny bit reminiscent of when we used to talk, but then again, i think it's good we're not. honestly, it was burdensome. i felt like i couldn't do anything to help. there were times you didn't even seem to want to talk. so it's much better this way, trust me. i'm still silly and awkward and probably forever alone. but that's okay, i'll adopt animals. they're better than people. stuff has happened since we last spoke. pretty shitty stuff. life has gotten harder. i've found out AGAIN that "promise" doesn't mean that. i've been lied to some more. i've found out i can't seem to keep people, no matter how hard i try. and i lost someone very, extremely dear to me forever. so i've got that going for me. i'm still sunshine-y and peppy, trying to make everyone's days when i can't even make my own. sometimes i like to flash my scar so that someone will see it, because secretly, i need someone to be concerned. because no one is. because they don't know. because i was never given the chance to complain. i just listen. i don't exactly have someone to tell. but you know, i'll be okay. i'm going to move to the ocean. should be neat. have you ever come to wyoming? you still should, it's still glowing in all its majestic glory. i suggest visiting now though. forest fires will start soon and eveything will be brown. just sayin'. well, i doubt we will meet as we said we would. but that's okay. i'm not really a huge chunk of your existence anymore. which is also okay. i wasn't helping ya. so i'm gone now. i hope things are cool for you. catch me if you can. -meri.

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‹qwertyuiopie› says :   18 July 2012   356808  
is this me? i love you mere. one day i will come to wyoming and we
will grow old. an we will travel and love and find new things. i
promise but if it was me. im sorry i didnt talk as much i was so
afraid of loosing you i just lost all my energy and i was afraid i was
falling apart and afraid you thought i was going crazy. i love you
okay? and you did help. you were the first person i went to. ill
always remebr you okay. youve helped me more than ive helped you. tell
me who you lost. tell me your feelings and problems. i know youre a
sensitive girl and you want love as much as the next person. lets
travel mere leigh. i remeber you. you are a huge chunk of my
disordered life. i will never forget you.
 

 
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