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It Just Not FairCategory: Just Me
Saturday, 26 May 2012
09:35:59 AM (GMT)
I live life working so hard to get where I wanted.
But one day, I lost my father and brother.
And I meet the fake girl of my dream.
In all, these 2 events destroy my world.

I wanted to fix so much.
I wanted to changed so little.
All because I was scared to become a monster.
For just so long, I helped others...

I never looked at myself anymore
I never thought of my future anymore
I never took the chances anymore
All because the 2 events in life...

But one of the events made me into a monster...
The fake girl of my dream.
She made me become into someone I hated...
A guy who never wants to be loved...

So many ladies asked me out.
To all, I never said yes.
Deep down I am angry and sad.
For the only reason I can't yes... 

Is because of her...
The fake girl of my dream...
I can't say yes because of her...
Because I still love her...

I... I am sorry for hurting all of these girls...
I am truly sorry and beyond....
If god is real...
Please end my soul and let me...

Helped those that are needed...

But it's just not fair...
Not fair that, I still love her
And that other girls must be hurt because of one selfish girl..
Might be my fault I can't let go... But it's also her for making me believe so
much...

After I lost father and brother...
The fake dream girl appear...
And from there...
She made me believe she was really here to hold me close...

But she left me...
Left me to remember the pain I had of my father and brother...
The pain I had of the good memories of her...
She left me in hell...
Last edited: 12 July 2012

Comments 
‹Obsydian.› says:   26 May 2012   337943  
Smack! You are not a monster! You are a good kind person.
 
‹dyingeveryday› says:   26 May 2012   621313  
listen, you need to get over her. if she is fake as you say, then get
over her. i hate seeing you in pain love. when your in pain so am i 
 
‹HiddenFlare› says:   26 May 2012   127260  
Im trying to forget her... but she made me believe she really
cared... idk what tp say anymore...
 
dokichi says:   27 May 2012   393202  
Well, hun, don`t waste your time on the girl that broke your heart,
who was fake, and seemed to care deeply. In reality, she didn`t give
two shits about you, and you`ll just have to accept it. A lot of
people get their heart broken, some even resort to suicide. But, why
would you commit suicide just because of a girl who intended to hurt
you? Keep your head up straight, and keep moving on. You`ll find
someone else who truly cares for you. Don`t look for pity or ask for
advice, `cause you know the best advice yourself. Move on. Find
something worth while instead of ranting about it. Make yourself feel
loved, and hang out with friends.
‹HiddenFlare› says:   27 May 2012   131454  
Dont worry... it'll just take some time. Maybe I am wrong but i dont
trust many ppl anymore. I kinda lost my self esteem so yea... ill just
live until i become better...
 
‹♪♫krystallizedSKY♫♪› says:   5 December 2012   302499  
you know what , when I'm reading this its like that fake girl is me .
I've done this to someone that I love , I've change her into a
horrible monster and now I want her back as my sis like before but she
wont accept me anymore . But I done that for a REASON . I'm glad she
fine someone now even its hurt when I know that girl just using her ..
 
‹♪♫krystallizedSKY♫♪› says :   5 December 2012   984603  
#find
 

 
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