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Monday, 24 October 2011
11:21:19 AM (GMT)
There she goes. 
With the wind behind her, she walks forward with determination.
Deep inside, a layer of sorrow lies just underneath her new found freedom.
The one she loved sent her away.
The one that changed everything turned into the one person she had to leave.
So one day, she left.
She left me.
My entire life is gone.
Everything that meant anything in my life is walking away, and I have no words to
bring her back.
I put the gun to my head.
I pull the trigger.
I wake up.
The ceiling stares back menacingly, confirming that this, and not the other, is the
real world.
My heart rate slowly goes back to normal, my breathing slows, but my mind never
I can't screw this up.
I think I will.
I am confident of it, but I will try my best to show her the love that lies inside
Here she comes.
She smiles.
I smile.
The love in her eyes is evident as she runs towards me, wraps her arms around me and
doesn't let go.
I rest my chin on her head, smell her hair and bend down for a kiss.
The feel of her skin on mine is more comforting than hot chocolate on a snowy day.
The taste of her lips is something I wouldn't trade away for anything.
These are the moments that I hope never end, but they always do.
We spend hours talking about everything and nothing all at once.
We learn, we grow, we change.
We enjoy each others company, simply because of the presence of love between us.
I hold her close, try my best to believe that it's all real.
How is this real?
The dreams that haunt me, the ones where she is gone, that seems more believable than
This perfection simply doesn't exist to people like me, does it?
Someone so beautiful should never be in the presence of someone so ugly, so flawed,
so ... imperfect.
I send the thoughts away as I hold her as tight as I can.
I whisper softly "I love you".
It all becomes real again as she says "I love you too."
Even if just for a moment, everything is completely as it should be.
One last hug, one last kiss.
One last goodbye.
There she goes.
She walks forward with determination.
She walks so naturally, so beautifully.
I blow her a kiss.
She blows me one.
I put hers in my pocket.
I save them for a rainy day.
I save them just in case I can never get one again.
I don't want a life without her kisses.
So I place them safely in my pocket and never lose them.
Her car pulls away. 
I stand there until I can no longer see her.
There she goes.
What if I never see her again?
What will life be without her?
Hopefully I won't have to find out.
Somewhere deep inside, I know that every time she leaves, she is destined to return.
She will hold me tight, believe in me and what we have, and love me.
and I will love her too, far more than she will ever understand.

‹~(Shaywee)~› says:   24 October 2011   947218  
I started reading this, and I got scared.
And then I continued, and I smiled. 
Today was a good day. 
Micheal, you're just as perfect as Jesse. The two of you together
makes the two most perfect people on earth. 
Kablammo_Dude says:   28 October 2011   540770  
Thank you so much!
I really hope so.
I just never feel like I deserve her, and the doubt consumes me.
I don't know what to do.... 
‹~(Shaywee)~› says:   29 October 2011   253007  
You're welcome. 
And you do deserve her. So stop thinking like that before I beat you
Kablammo_Dude says:   31 October 2011   118425  
I'll never feel like I deserve her. She is so perfect, I still don't
know why she would ever be with me...
‹~(Shaywee)~› says :   1 November 2011   772337  
Because you're both such perfect people! That's why you're together.


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