Monday, 25 July 2011
03:07:13 AM (GMT)
xXRainbowMassacreXx wrote this not me. i've been working on something elsewhere so i
couldn't have written this.
I am here to tell you a story, a story that will torture your thoughts by day and
poison your dreams by night. And though I will do my best, there are no words that
can be written, nor brush strokes layed on canvas, that can describe the stark and
utter horror of the night that Annabel died. The emptiness will haunt you. This is a
nightmare. Is my annabel really gone? Why have I stopped my day? I find it hard to
breathe. Her body teases me, as the sun reveals the dawn. Her smile reflects the
gold. I kissed a sharp painful lie. Baby, lay in my arms, and cuddle me close. Soon
this will be just an awful memory. Will I ever be able to sleep again? I watch the
blood drip from the corners of your mouth. The watch seems vicious for me. I'll
and slit your throat. I'm starting to believe what my eyes are seeing now. Eyes look
so beautiful, and you know what I'll be now. Sweet, raffish. It will be mine. It
be done. Empty eyes accuse a face so evil. I'm coming undone. The mirror says it
Eclipse and story of innocence lost. I said "Look at me my real angel. Abyss, I
I will speak against you. Fly, forgive me. My one, I see, never say you know. Never
for me, though it was for you. Fly me, monster." Such an awful memory. My angel, lie
to me, and tell me I'm dreaming. Please wake me up, please wake me. A feel like you
will always be such a tragic part of me. I'll watch to see you torture me. A mirror
never lies. They know. Everybody knows. Do you not see what they see? A mirror never
lies. I see what they see. Everybody knows. Everybody knows.
What is wrong with her eyes? A glossy stare that won't leave me be starts my
running cold. A gaze that could make hell freeze over. I have to understand she's
gone. But she's not. Don't you tell me that she is dead. Watch her lips softly move
because she's still whispering to me! And something here is not quite right. Skin so
cold beneath my touch, as I brush back her hair and close her eyes, but I cannot
stand to turn away. When I do, she'll be gone. It's frightening. Sweaty hands will
fail to lock the door. They'll be here soon. I wish I could keep my teeth from
grinding. I wish I'd stop looking behind me. Running now will only make it worse. I
wish I could shake the awful feeling. I wish my mind would stop. Maybe I am crazy
my mind is trying to deceive me. As the ground vanishes I wonder, will the sky be
next to fail me? Paint abandons canvas, and my brush can't seem to start again from
scratch, as I watch everything unravel. Why should I even try to stop the collapse?
won't. Shaking as I rest her body down. No one knows, only me. It's frightening. Why
should I even try?
If only you could see. You're the only girl I've ever dreamed of. Should I
apologize with such pathetic eyes? Just the sight of you has made me sick tonight.
was your poison kiss that turned me into this. Then again there is a chance you
be right. Darling, will you please take a walk with me? We could count the stars and
disappear. I wish you could see you're the only girl I've ever dreamed of. Are you
satisfied? What fate has led me here? Oh, please forgive me, dear. I don't know if I
could survive on my own. I could have married you. Instead I buried you. Now we'll
see if I can fall asleep alone. The nightmare's coming true. I did it all for you.
The depth of a man's soul cannot be measured in a matter of meters and fathoms, but
rather it is in my opinion, only quantified by his proximity to heaven and hell. It
was in such a state that I ushered myself past the town tavern, bursting at the
with the sounds of laughter, and drunken piano playing. And had it only been a
different night, a different place, a different kind of man passing by the threshold
of that innocent pub. The events that transpired at that point would have
been drastically different. I can only guess if anyone outside that place had a clue
when the exclamations of mirth became the desperate screams of the helpless, begging
for their very lives.
Is it about time? Oh yes, it really is. Let's get this party started. My hands
shaking. Just take a drink, steady your nerves. Are you ready to run? I've been
waiting patiently for this. Please don't get up. Oh no, you're fine right there.
don't mind me as I take you all in. So drink 'em up, oh yes just slam 'em down. Have
one on me as I lock you all in. My little sheep, your wolf has come. You should know
I'm dangerous. My thirst for blood turns me on. How sweet. Is this what we pictured
the night that we said "You're the one"? I'm going crazy without you. It's hard to
believe but I'm having fun. Annabel, look what you've started! The knife slides down
to the tip of my tongue. I'm finding pleasure in watching you writhe. I lean in just
to lick the sweat off your face. I taste the reverence dripping down my throat.
is definitely something wrong! Will they scream? Will they cry? Will they beg as
die or have to accept that this is the end? I'm so glad all of you came! Looking in
see a lonely man etching tallies into the bar. Looking on I see a desperate man
repeating something to the floor.
Saw your eyes today in a memory painted in the sky. You smiled and said to me "A
love like this can never truly die." So now the show's over and I've got to disguise
the thing I've become. I only wish I could stop laughing! I grin because the joke is
on them this time! They don't have a clue. Calm consumes me. I shut my eyes and once
again the pleasure strangles me. I taste the tears of sweet indulgence, pain and
fantasy. Oh, the visions inside my head. The emptiness will haunt you. Sanity is
slowly slipping from my hands now. I'm standing closer to the edge than I should be
allowed. Oh, what little regret I have. Does that make me a killer? I am the face of
death standing right behind you. Yet you're oblivious to my cold breath on your
Is it just too easy? Am I just too good at this? I am the chosen one. I am the end
all and now you are mine! Let's just say you're right and the nightmare ends. We
wake up side by side. What makes you think that I would let you live? I've really
lost my mind. Behold, for I am the will of the reaper! Beg for the mercy of your
Baby! why are you doing this to me? Sweetheart! Are those your eyes staring
straight back at me? Angel! I see your smile everywhere! Darling! Stop! Night falls
and I'm running in circles. I'm being chased by my imagination. Tell me I'm
say you'll always be mine. Say that everything is over, tell me I'm fine. No one
deserves to live like this. I touch your lips and stare in your eyes. You smile and
it makes me fly. You are the reason my heart beats.
Tonight it's just you and me. Night as dark as my thoughts sets the scene for my
return. Lightning nips at my heels as I race home. Wearily I stagger towards the
of her pale voice. Demons jeer my attempt to be free. Windows cast her gentle
reflection. Her somber silhouette dances for me. Dear God, it's her. Look at you,
miserable fool. Get off your knees, your prayers fall upon deaf ears. Gods turned
back on you, heavens gates are shut, and now you're knocking on the devil's door.
I've been expecting you for some time, sir, allow me to introduce myself. I'm the
who pulls on all the strings, son. You're lucky I don't kill you where you stand.
This can't be real. Tonight I raise my glass. There's nothing left. For I know it's
time to move on. All hope has failed. My patience will not last. I've lost my soul.
Tomorrow I will be gone.
The night sky feels as though it has never been darker. With the fleeting hope of
vengeance compelling me I will attempt to recollect myself and resume my chase. But
what is it that I'm chasing? I'm not really chasing anything at all. Am I simply
drowning myself in revenge to avoid the horrifying truth? I've lost the only thing
that made me feel truly alive. Are my hands responsible? Are these? Who was he? Who
was the mad man that stood before me tonight? I swear I've seen his face before. I
know I've seen his face before.
I've made up my mind and I will be leaving. Leaving this cruel, dark world for
soulless to share, but first, women will shriek and watch their husbands bleed.
Children will cry and watch their mothers die, because tonight, tonight we all go to
hell. Why? I have to let go of what happened to my love. I am taking out on everyone
else all the problems I've brought on myself. When I made your heart melt. My belle,
we soon will meet again. There's nothing left for me to lose, except confusion. I'm
finished trying to tell myself this will go away. There's no one left to talk me
down. My feet are slipping. One day I hope my name doesn't bring back memories of
day that I left her. Goodbye, so long. My heart belongs to the one I am chasing
after. For better, or even for worse, remember me forever. Now the only question
is how to take you all down with me. The coroner will have his hands full tonight,
that is if he is not among the dead. Dead will choke the streets with such vulgarity
that grown men will weep, and then you will find the end is drawing night. The
dizziness stuns me, would someone please distract me? Can I really get through this?
Can I really betray myself? For better, or even for worse, remember me forever.
There's sweat on my hands and a knife at my throat, and as the blade bites my skin
Is it her? Could it be? Should my eyes believe what they see? If you are who I
think you are
I might lose my mind. Just a kiss from her lips, and I would simply float away. The
way her hips swing back and forth. I've got butterflies. Dead girls don't just
out of thin air, but I am victim to her sinister stare. Please don't hate me for
I've done. Run away with me, I'll be everything that you need. Such a pretty girl
screams to me. Take my hand, take my breath away. What if my heart breaks again?
my breath away. Just the scent of her skin
Unlocks forbidden memories. The slightest graze of fragile hand. I've got
butterflies. I can't lose you again. I'm nothing without you. I'll never let you
So I'm thinking we should maybe just run away from here with no plan of coming
back. We can stay away forever. Our anguished love will be all we have and I will
save your life. It's happening again. I won't watch you die. It's happening again. I
can see it's not the first time you have come and taken her from me. Rest assured
it's not the last time I'm going to set you free. You took her once, shame on you.
You took her twice, shame on me. Whisper softly, and tell me that you love me. I'm
losing you. I don't know what to do. Please, forgive me, and know that I am sorry.
I'm losing you. I don't know what to do. Trapped inside a memory, I'm losing you.
falling apart. Do you realize it's over? There's no chance of leaving here alive.
You don't realize what you're saying. Without me, you can't survive. You've ripped
out my heart. I don't know where to start. I don't want to go. I can't let it show.
I'll be with her again, together 'til the end. If I have to go. I'll be damned if
alone. I'll be with her again.
Look at the sky, as the night descends. The rain is crashing down. I've hit
another dead end. Just before I let hopes slip away, a shadow is revealed. The devil
shows his face. I'm scared to death and have myself to blame. I'm to blame. How did
we end up fighting anyway? You know I used to search the sky, and dream of where you
were. I need you by my side. We can end this together. I know I promised you the
world, and still I let you down. I need you by my side and together we'll end this
now. Look in my eyes, am I shaking now? I am all you fear, have I made myself clear?
Shut your mouth and finish what you started. Boy you haven't got the slightest idea
just who I am and what I did for you. Don't you see that I'm trying to save you? As
the last ray's of sunlight fade one killer chases another. Through the tangled
madness of the city, a clash of steel announces the presence of its quarry. The
is set, the night explodes. You killed her, you murderer. You have stripped me of
one that I love
Annabel, our Annabel! Murderer, you murdered her. You have no clue what she's
of. You know you better look behind you!
Her youthful flush color had drained from her much like the very blood from her
veins on the bed in which she lied. Such a foul image for one to behold. In some
twisted way it seemed to only enhance her exquisite beauty. Like a lilly on a grave.
I have failed. Once again I have let her down. My poor, sweet Annabel. You trusted
me, you gave me your love, your soul. Now I fall to my knees in front of the man who
took you from me. I fall pathetic, defeated, I will be with you again so soon my
love, so very soon. Eyes of an angel bathe me and I'll be damned if he thinks he can
stop me now. "Sweetheart, darling. Turn around, it's me. Follow my voice.
Everything's going to be okay. My love, everything will be fine. It's all over now."
How does the dagger feel now when you're on the receiving end? If this is what
call betrayal then this is what I call revenge. How could I be so blind? I guess I
fell in love too quickly. But I'm fine. Imagine where you'd be now if you only knew
the one you love is the one who's killing you. I trusted you too much. I know now
that I should have kept my eyes wide open the first time that we kissed. I'll bury
you for this. Just say to me that this time is the last time, and I'll pretend that
somehow I know we'll be fine. Years spent watching in silence as your illness
onto page. Those were the last days I spend with you before you left, before he
Just say to me that this time is the last time, and I'll pretend I'm fine. It is my
fault? You fell into that illusion you've been living discretely. Should I blame you
in the end? Did you ever think the sketches would take over completely? Die! Just
die! You are scum! You are filth! Choke on blood as your knife ends the show! Writhe
in pain you thought you'd never know! I don't think they dig graves close enough to
hell for the likes of you! I handed you a knife and my heart, and now the dream is
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