Monday, 13 December 2010
02:38:52 PM (GMT)
I have been hoping for over four, maybe six years?
That I could take part in an exchange to Japan preferably. However, now that I have
found an exchange program with free scholarships to go abroad to nearly any country
imaginable my parents have said no, and with this exchange, it is completely optional
to take on a host student, you also don't need any education in the language.
They have tried to guilt me into giving in, and now, I have.
They bring up things like, what about your job?
What about band?
What about us, your family, you just want ot get away from us, don't you?
It's all hurtful.
So, perhaps I'll partake in a six week exchange.
Though, I'm pissed, I don't see how this is fair.
I feel like crying.
Every time I think of this, it brings on a new wave of broken hopes, dreams and
I could easily get the money required, and even a scholarship, especially if I apply
Why won't they let me take this opportunity, why not?
I'm the good girl, I have never gotten drunk, had sex, dated, even kissed a guy!
I think I deserve something in return.
I feel selfish, and wrong saying all of this about my parents, but it's the truth.
Though why give me nothing in return for being good, and my sister, everything.
Parties on weekends, drinking, drugs, denial, stealing, lieing.
All of the above?
And her friends.. Let's not speak of them, they're not the greatest people.
I just want the chance to do something amazing, something that I've dreamed about for
ages like this.
It's the one wish that I would die if it were to come true.
So aside from being denied my only escape from this town for a year, what should I do
for summer holidays?
Apply for my passport and travel the states alone?
Hahah, probably not.
I think I'll end up working three jobs(second one lined up, I start training
soon-ish), tons of money.
With no free time.