Tuesday, 2 February 2010
09:16:21 PM (GMT)
"He" is/was a surprising addition to my life as I know it. I feel like we werent
supposed to be friends... Wait, better phrasing.. I feel like we have an unlikely
friendship. Either way, it happened. He came into my life at a good time, I must say.
Things are going pretty okay for me, and I was ready to adopt him into my crazy
world. I know he's gone through tough times, but I'm going to to be here for him
all the way. I can say that I love him, not in the sense that most people think of,
but in a different way. I think he's great. He's the perfect balmance of sensitive,
caring, sincere, funny, and sweet. He's the type of person who can make you feel good
in any situation. Its easy to tell him how I feel, and easy to listen to what he has
to say. I fall for his smile constantly. Every time I see it, it brightens my day a
little. I just hope his smiles he shows me are real. Most people have different types
of friends andrhwy want to be around Certain friends only at certain times. He's like
all different types rolled into one, and theres never a time you woulnt like being
around him. But I'm curious. Mutual friends tell me thugs about him. Not about how he
is, but about his feelings... And feelings toward me. Its not something I would have
necessarily expected, either. They say he may be in love. I wonder if he is because I
don't know. If he is, I'm deff flattered to have such an amazing person caring for me
in that way, but he's wasting his time. I'm not worth falling in love with. I'm a
complicated ball pit full of different colors of feelings, emotions, thoughts, fun,
and disaster. I'm nothing special. Not beautiful, not a genius, not a wonderful
person, I'm not fine all the time, I break down too. I just hope he understands this.
I don't want him thinking highly of me and then being dissapointed.