Wednesday, 3 June 2009
11:55:25 AM (GMT)
I have to type this out, or else my head will asplode. Again.
(If you don't understand what I'm babbling about, it's okay, I don't understand
I hate change. I love change. I'm scared of change. I'll accept the change since
change is inevitable. But mostly, I'm scared of it. Change means both development and
improvement, I know, but it also means difference. And if you thought about it - like
really, really think about - it's a pretty scary thought. I know I should embrace the
change, but really, embracing something I'm terrified of? I'd rather die in a ditch.
A really, really, really deep ditch so nothing will reach me. Please don't think of
me as someone who doesn't accept new ideas - I accept ideas, really. It's just -
different from ideas. If the world changed all of a sudden, I'm sure I'll have a
heart attack. Change is scary - for me, that is. Yes, yes, I know I change everyday
albeit slowly. I know I changed some people, I know I can change the world somehow -
but that's a scary thought.
Development and improvement are okay and all, but it's the difference that scares me
...What is wrong with me?
I'm so, so, so, sorry. I'll make it up for everyone somehow? <3