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Monday, 20 April 2009
01:43:07 AM (GMT)
All of you guys that are in the WCP, 

you know almost exactly what I'm going at.

Mental condition: Totally unstable.

Tearing, ripping, slitting, cutting myself open...

From the stsirw to my luos...

All I think about, y'know?

Stress, stress, stress...

No true sleep,

Even if eyes are shut for hours...

Just keep dreaming

Of macabre and morbid nightmares

That chill me

Awake again.

Voices, talking all the time...

I talk back.

People stare.

Listening to tNBC: Reviseted soundtrack,

Making me a bit saner.

Just a bit.



Screamed back.

Yay, a whole frickin' screamfest

Between us all here

In the wonderful


Serious therapy required.

Weight changing...

Lost seven pounds,

Then gained four back in a blink.

My arms

Are littered

With little pains,


Yet obvious...

All I can say,

For now,

Is that 

I'm going




‹TheRulerofNightmares› says:   20 April 2009   467836  
Sounds like you need a second family, like mine. They help me with
stress all the time. No joke.
Katilix says:   20 April 2009   915586  
I can't talk to my family at the moment. My mother and father are
going through a really broken time, and I'm not really allowed to be
open with them and add onto their stress, or so I'm told by them.
Plus, I'm not home for more than two hours every day anyways,
excluding sleep time!
‹TheRulerofNightmares› says:   21 April 2009   929483  
I meant my second family, not the ones I live with. The ones in my

Hey, if you need someone to talk to, I'm still here. That's what
friends are for, right? Talking to, relieve pressure, that sort of
Katilix says:   22 April 2009   816839  
Kind of a mentality-centered inner family? Probably already have one,
but they're just hiding @.@

I think I'll have a brother named Bob, and he shall be a duckie!

Or maybe not. But I'm experimenting with the idea now ^.^ 
gothprincess says:   22 April 2009   767935  
hey gal u always got ur at least *wink*

i is hiding u just dont know it...

Katilix says :   22 April 2009   852226  
Got it, girlfriiieeeend. You've been sticking with me through all of

Gwah, three hour rehearsal tonight. *sleeeepy snoooore*

Soooo tired... but we gotta JUST KEEP SWIMMING!


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