Saturday, 14 March 2015
01:47:45 AM (GMT)
It's 2015, I'm 21 years old now.. and I've just spent the last half an hour reading
my old diary entries and filled myself with incredible nostalgia.
Things are so much different.
I'm graduating University in a few months.. I just read my last entry, my final year
of highschool was starting.
An update since that day:
If you read a lot of my entries, Kyle was a big part of them, my first boyfriend who
I was absolutely and completely infatuated with.. I really think I loved him, and we
stopped seeing each other finallly in about December of 2011 and in October I was
seeing a guy at the same time (just hanging out) named Tyler.... and 3 and a half
years later Tyler has become the greatest thing thats ever happened to me. Tyler has
replaced any sadness and any bad things that happened throughout my teens. We've
grown up together and he's been beside me each and every step of the way.
I read my posts a few months after starting to date Kyle, talking about how in love I
was with him, but I didn't understand love. Tyler has really taught me what that
concept means, I can truly say I love Ty with every single cell in my body.
Unfortunately, Kyle has decided to be a little worm in my life, popping up every few
months and I wouldn't ever leave Tyler but Kyle still brings up feelings that I
though I'd left behind at 17 years old. I miss him, I guess I could say,,, but oddly
enough there are so many similarities between them but Ty does everything 100x
better... Ty is trustworthy, honest, hardworking and has a smile that can break any
bad mood I'm in
but.. I've noticed things:
Kyle used to weld, has many similar traits to ty (curly hair, brown eyes, good smile
etc etc) that I loved, and he's currently a firefighter ..
Ty welds, has those physical characteristics and is looking at becoming a
firefighter.. all without knowing Kyle was/is any of those things.
Its really funny how things worked out.
At 16 I thought I couldn't live without Kyle that there wouldn't be anyone else, they
say the first person you fall for is the one who will always keep a piece of your
heart, I guess thats true. Kyle as apologized for everything and says he wishes he
could go back and change things, said he was immature at that age but I'm happy those
things happened or I wouldn't have met Tyler and I wouldn't have met the person I was
supposed to be with... there were a few guys between Kyle and being with Ty but Tyler
is the person who after 3 and a half years I can comfortably say I can't live
without. We've seriously talked about marriage and we've been living together for 2
This is possibly my last entry here, if any of my old friends on here are around this
is a little life update for you guys..
I'm happy, so so happy, my life is good and University is almost over... things get
I miss this little world of Kupika that consumed so much time of my teen years,
thankyou for always giving me a place to vent and draw my feelings away.