Friday, 26 August 2011
09:33:19 AM (GMT)
I just have to type it all out, this is my way of keeping myself satisfied and calm
with all the chaos that's surrounding me..
In the beginning of my junior year, my classmates are different from the ones I have
during my sophomore year. You see, I've been trying hard to fit in and become one of
them. I want to become friends with this girl who I first knew online and found out
that she's in the same school as mine.. She's so webtrovert that she's more
unapproachable in real life than talking to her online... Also, I feel like envying
her, She get's all the stuff and have friends with the popular ones.
I feel like an outcast, whenever I ask something to them and they look at me like I'm
an out-of-this-world creature. Another one is seeing all the couples in the hallway
and ending up staring at them for having too much envy. My family and I are having
little argue about me not wanting to go to college in the same school because of the
people, they told me that I have a lot of insecurities of myself which is true but
you can't take that out in every girl which is mean. I feel like Kurt Hummel...
by this, I jot down some things to suggest to remind me of my imperfections:
◙ never approach or ask them. It's you and only you against the world and nobody
◙ never expect
◙ be selfish and ignorant
◙ stop. being. friendly.
There, I said it! I feel relief.