I'm Feel Bad now about Lying And Anyone I've Lied to has a Right To
Hate me.
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I'm Feel Bad now about Lying And Anyone I've Lied to has a Right To
Hate me.
Category: (general)
Sunday, 5 April 2009
01:16:02 AM (GMT)
I'm A Lier !  

No I haven't lied to everyone, but I have lied to some very close friends online ( no
one here thought and I won't I won't lie to any one any more! ) Flamingpie32
from gaiaonline.com CoLDFire/Jake, Devin, -MoRa-, michael010, and maybe
more idk or remember them thought from Switch In 

First Off and I'm just coming out with it I'm
super,super,super,very,very,very,really,really,really.......................SORRY!!!!
  

 

And Please If any thing else FORGIVE ME and I'm SO VERY SORRY YOU ALL
TRUSTED ME, I PROMISE THAT AFTER THIS NO MORE LIES YOU WILL KNOW THE REAL ME !!! I
PROMISE TO YOU AND GOD !!  

Okay The Truth ............. Is I only told you those things for 1. To get you
to like me better and not have my life so boring into witch I know its not but...
yea
2. Because it is how I really FEEL INSIDE. 3. Cause I don't even know But It
was stupid cause now I have to make up more and more lies and It gets me no where 

Okay Now THE REAL ME  

~ Sighs~ 
The Only Reason I said my mother was dead to Switch in people was because I felt like
my mom is never there She goes out drinking and partying and does Crack and 
all that shit she made bad chooses in her life and she hasn't learned a think from
them ! It kills me inside to know I was a mother at 10 yes at 10  ( no I
didn't have a baby at 10 -.- ) But I toke care of my Brothers and Sister at 10!
That's one reason I told Flamingpie32 I had a baby at 10 from my brother and he
killed it I feel as though 
I was there mother and when my mother stepped up to take them back as hers I feel as
though they were my own kids taken from me and I fight with my brothers and sisters a
lot now and my mother may pay a lot more attention to us but she still goes drinking
and does drugs and all that bad shit And the reason I love my grandma and told you I
moved with her is because my grandma is the [u]BEST GRANDMA EVER WHO LISTENS TO ME
AND HELPS ME COOK I LOOOOOVVVVE COOKING!!!!!  I LOVE HER  !!! and the reason I
made my mother sound good to you is because THAT'S ALL I EVER WANTED !!!!  I WANT
MY MOTHER !!! A REAL MOTHER ! NOT A FAKE ON CRACK!!!  The only reason I told you my
brother abused me is because I have been abused BY = MY BAD MOTHERS X BOY FRIENDS
EXPS.- HIT, SOAP DOWN MY MOUTH ALL THAT SHIT  YEA I DIDN'T LIE ABOUT THAT ONE 
NOW WITH MY DAD OH MY FUCKING DAD WELL 1 I HATE HIM 2 I HATE HIM 3 I HATE HIM OKAY
WHY YOU ASK WHEN  THE ONLY ONE TO GO TO NEXT IS YOUR DAD AND HE NEVER EVEN HAS TIME
FOR YOU YEA MAYBE THAT'S WHY ALWAYS WORK WORK WORK AND NOW WITH THAT THAT FUCKING
WITCH IN MY WAY THERE'S ISN'T A 
ME AT ALL CAUSE MY STEP MOM IS IN THE WAY AND I NEVER SAID HE COULD MARRY HER HE
DIDN'T EVEN TALK TO ME ABOUT IT AND LEST MY MOTHER TALKS TO US BEFORE SHE GOES AND
GETS MARRIED -.-'' I REALLY LOVED MY MOTHERS HUSBAND BRENT  HE WAS GOING TO MAKE
EVERYTHING BETTER WHY WHY'D HE HAVE TO GO AND DIE WHY DOES EVERYONE DIE I HATE IT WHY
WHY CAN'T I JUST DIE TO WHY AND NOW SHE EVEN MORE DEPRESSED WITCH ONLY MAKES ME
DEPRESSED AND MY DAD ALWAYS TAKING MARLANDS SIDE HE WOULD CARE IF ONE DAY I WAS GONE
SCRATCH THAT HE WOULDN'T EVEN KNOW I WAS GONE  I HATE HER SO MUCH ITS ALWAYS HER
HER HER HER
THEN WORK WORK WORK WORK.............................AH! SOME ONE SHOOT ME ALREADY DO
I LOOK LIKE I'M JOKING HA HA !!!  SO THERE NOW YOU KNOW HAPPY DO KNOW SO HARD IT
REALLY WAS TO WRITE THIS NO NO YOU DON'T YOU HAVE NOT IDEA!!!!!! 

OKAY SO LOOK YOU HAVE EVERY RIGHT NOT TO BELIEVE ME NOW AND EVERY RIGHT TO HATE ME 
ALL I KNOW IS THAT THIS TIME I'M NOT LYING  
AND NOW THANKS TO YOU FLAMINGPIE32 I''M REALLY NOT ALONE I HAVE GOD AND ITS THANKS TO
YOU IF YOU WOULD HAVE NEVER TOLD ME I WOULD HAVE NEVER KNEW
HIM AND JAKE FOR 1 I PRE. PLANED MY LIFE AND I'M MARRING SOME ONE THAT'S FROM ANOTHER
PLACE AND 2 I REALLY DID LIKE YOU AND I STILL DO  HATE ME IF YOU WISH THOUGHT BTW I
REALLY DO LIKE MY MOTHERS BOY FRIEND THIS TIME ME AND HIM GET ALONG HE UNDERSTANDS
THE ME EVEN I DIDN'T KNOW AND HE GOES OUT AND WE DO STUFF LIKE FISHING AND ALL THAT
MORA AND MY ALL ALL EVEN ON THIS FRIENDS YOU ALL HAVE GREAT PERSONALIZES YOU WILL ALL
DO GREAT WONDERFUL THINGS ONE DAY  AND WHO KNOW MAYBE ONE DAY I'LL SEE YOU FACE TO
FACE NOT THAT I NEED TO I CAN TELL YOUR ALL GREAT JUST BY THE WAY YOU TALK 


Love you, Carmen 

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