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With everything that has happened to me for all my 19 almost 20 years;Category: (general)
Tuesday, 25 March 2014
02:32:33 AM (GMT)
Why do I feel like the one who's messed up in the head?
You're the one who actually did it, I just laid there cause I was terrified of you. 
Every time you say oh I got this girls number or oh I screwed this girl it just makes
me resent you more.
You say all the girls you been with think you're sweet and funny and cool,
But I know the monster that you are, I don't care if you said it was to protect me
from being how our parents were.
It makes me wanna go and put what you did on blast to everyone you know,
And say you ruined my life you because you did.
I can barely talk to guys because of what you did for ten years, so you ruined my
view on guys,
I can't even be around guys without being scared or nervous.  
I could have liked guys if it wasn't for you, I could have been normal.
Even now 4 years later I still wonder if life would be better without me or you,
And it's even, it's half you half me. 
I do act like you're my best friend, but all I see when I look at you is red.
I will always love you unconditionally, but I will always despise you for what you
took from me,
And there's no forgiving or forgetting that. 
And to think I used to think it was my fault.
Why do you have to have the perfect life while I'm sitting here screwed up in the
head wondering how I can just forget this and bury my sorrows in a drink or a joint.
Personally if I had the choice, you'd be a fucking pedophile who couldn't get a
fucking job or ever be around kids you fucking piece of shit.
To my dear fucking nasty ass bitch of a brother.
Sincerely you're sister who hates you, good fucking job.
Last edited: 25 March 2014

crazyhot says:   25 March 2014   146585  
If he's a sociopath (looks like it) he probably doesn't care
HeartsAndDaggers says:   25 March 2014   305402  
He's not a sociopath. He's just idk. There's more to it then him just
doing that to me, but it doesn't mean just cause he had issues when he
did it doesn't make it okay for me. I just wanted to vent this out to
people I don't know so it doesn't ruin him, as sad as that is. 
‹AnimeManica87› says :   25 March 2014   595364  
that is sad...the hell did I just read man...I just see shit like
this and be glad that...I'm not that person to my lil sister...I love
my lil sister to death...I mean most of the time it's like she's my
daughter...so it's like...you fuck with her...you bout to get the
business homie straight up...there are no amount apologies I could
tell you...that could possibly heal what you have went thru...but with
the most sincerity in my heart...I do apologize for his FOOLISH

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