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You'll never read it, but a chance is better then zero.Category: (general)
Tuesday, 18 March 2014
07:02:40 AM (GMT)
I remember not only you, but others saying I was too into myself. Maybe I do push a
little too much, but I only pushed because I was scared.
I wanted to keep ahold of what I wanted, and never did I only think of me. Countless
days, minutes, hours and even seconds I didn't think about how I'd feel. It was you.
But when I felt like you were happier without me anywhere in sight I didn't know what
to do, I went nuts, I wanted to fix everything. But you can't fix what's unfixable.
You may never read it, and now, over a year later, I can say I'm okay. There's no
doubt about how I felt, you'll always have a piece of me that no one will have and
that I won't have back.
Life is truly unfair, but as you've said, God won't put you through things you can't
get through. Now when I think of you I just take a deep breath and wish you well, I
wish you the best cause in my eyes you deserved that and still do. I hope the others
that come in and out treat you well. I will always miss your voice and hearing the
smile behind that voice. But I'm okay, when I think of you, I won't get sad, or mad
because I was once part of your life, and not everyone can say that.
I wish I could reach out to you and just help you, it hurts me more then anything
seeing or hearing you say you need help and I am too scared to help cause I don't
even know if my help is what you want.
You've taught me things, good and bad, and all I can do is make me a better person
with those lessons.
I might have said I missed you once too many, but it wasn't cause I wanted you back,
yeah would've that been great? Duhh, but I missed my best friend. At first I missed
my baby, but missing my best friend is what hurt, cause I just wanted to see you say
it's all gonna be okay,
Well who would have thought that I'd be the one telling you it's okay, I just wish
you'd see and let me help you, like you did for me once upon a time.

‹AnimeManica87› says :   18 March 2014   554836  
I think somehow some should put this in a poem or a song
format...if that don't tried right...doesn't
hurt to try...thas what I always say...I hope all goes well wit
you...haven't heard from you in a while...hit me up...fill me in on
wus goin on aight...ttys...lata


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