Monday, 4 June 2012
02:35:57 AM (GMT)
seriously though. i swear, if you lived near me we'd be best fucking friends. you're
seriously one of the nicest people i've met on this site, and one of the realest.
you actually listen to everything i say and that means alot. i'm a jerk towards you
sometimes, yeah i am. and i know it too. i don't mean to, i promise you that. it's
just that sometimes when i'm getting close to someone, i push them away. like who the
fuck does that. something good comes my way and i dodge it. i don't want anything to
do with it. then i sit here and wonder why my life is so fucked up. why none of my
friends talk to me anymore, why no one wants to hang out with me, why everyone
ignores me. i've fucked up my life soo much. but this site, is like a way to escape
reality. i've never felt like this before about a website but it's true. here i don't
have to think about anything real. i can just have fun conversations with my friends
on here. and the friends i've made on here are 100x better then in real life.
anyways, this diary was suppose to be about you breanna and about how i am thankful
that even after all we've been through that you still talk to me. but i got off of
topic alot. LOL but i am serious. if i ever push you away, push back because i am
stupid as fuck for pushing you away.