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Wednesday, 23 May 2012
11:03:18 PM (GMT)
Did I mention that I feel I'm really, really in love with this person? 

Yes, I am a stupid sixteen year old girl, but I'm a stupid teenage girl with a
history of maintaining "crushes" for three years. 

I've never been in a relationship that lasted less than a year and a half. I feel
strongly for this person even though it won't amount to anything, and I can't make
the feelings go away.

It's so frustrating! I hate it! I hate that this person deserves love so much, but
feels so unready to be with someone. I hate that I do love this person so
much, but understand that this isn't the right time for them to be with someone. I
hate that because of the kind of people we are I will never be the right "someone". 

Why am I in love with a person who understands love but isn't ready for it again

Why doesn't figuring out the many reasons why it wouldn't never work change how I

I just want to be able to be with/ around them before they leave for college and I
only see them once a year.

It's not what I want, but it would be enough for me just to feel like we were close
friends. At least that's a connection to them.

Being in love should be more than wondering whether the feelings or your object of
affection will go away first.
Last edited: 23 May 2012

‹Panda  Bear› says :   30 May 2012   949051  
"Being in love should be more than wondering whether the feelings or
your object of affection will go away first."

^ This. I've been thinking on what to comment on this diary; whether
about my long-time lack of loving or my short-time love
disappointments. But your phrase can perfectly describe it all.

Anyway. I feel happy for you for being in love, but at the same time
this situation does sound complicated.


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