Wednesday, 23 May 2012
11:03:18 PM (GMT)
Did I mention that I feel I'm really, really in love with this person?
Yes, I am a stupid sixteen year old girl, but I'm a stupid teenage girl with a
history of maintaining "crushes" for three years.
I've never been in a relationship that lasted less than a year and a half. I feel
strongly for this person even though it won't amount to anything, and I can't make
the feelings go away.
It's so frustrating! I hate it! I hate that this person deserves love so much, but
feels so unready to be with someone. I hate that I do love this person so
much, but understand that this isn't the right time for them to be with someone. I
hate that because of the kind of people we are I will never be the right "someone".
Why am I in love with a person who understands love but isn't ready for it again
Why doesn't figuring out the many reasons why it wouldn't never work change how I
I just want to be able to be with/ around them before they leave for college and I
only see them once a year.
It's not what I want, but it would be enough for me just to feel like we were close
friends. At least that's a connection to them.
Being in love should be more than wondering whether the feelings or your object of
affection will go away first.
Last edited: 23 May 2012