Friday, 14 October 2011
12:11:39 AM (GMT)
Until today, I had no idea how romantic cuddling in the back of a train car before
it starts, listening to rain pour down, could be.
It's made even better knowing it's with the first boy Iv'e ever felt comfortable
being in physical contact with, aside from Stu and Thomas. But they don't count,
seeing as one's my brother and the other is practically the same thing.
The last two days have been weirdly amazing, but I'm freaking out too, because it
won't last. maybe tomorrow will be good, and maybe even saturday too, but I honestly
can't see any way I could have any more good days in a row.
My artwork is coming along well, and I'm getting a lot closer to my friends, and I'm
very close to having a boyfriend. But I can't get past knowing that more likely than
not, it's all temporary. The art will suck again, my friends will pull away again,
and something will keep him away. Again.