Tuesday, 13 September 2011
12:51:49 AM (GMT)
I had expected this would happen eventually. I knew that you were over me, and that
eventually you would move on.
I just...didn't expect it to happen so soon. I really thought that I would be farther
along the road to healing once it happened.
Kelsey Beavers. Her name is Kelsey Beavers.
Part of me...part of me hopes that this will be another one week relationship of
yours. Evan says that's how long your relationships lasted before me. You know. Hit
it and quit it.
Then part of me feels sorry for wishing that on that girl. I don't even know her. you
know, apart from the information I gathered from stalking her facebook.
But...in a way, I'm not just jealous of her. I'm jealous of you. Because you're
clearly over me. You're obviously, unlike me, not holding on to something that is
long, long gone.
Moving on is healthy. So...good for you.
The selfish part of me wants to ignore your new girlfriend. Pretend she doesn't
exist, so that I can feel better. But I know that I have to face the facts. It is
fucking time for me to move on. I need to get over you. and maybe, you getting a new
girlfriend is what I need.
Either way, the sadness hasn't hit me yet. It usually doesn't. Not until later.
Last edited: 13 September 2011