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i regret everything.Category: (general)
Monday, 31 May 2010
11:40:19 PM (GMT)
i talked to my friend alyssa on the outdoor workout machines.
we sat on the leg press machine and just talked for 70 minutes.
we talked about a lot.
and she asked me who the one guy is that i really regret not going for.

and that really made me remember last year.
we both liked each other. he'd threaten to beat up anyone who made me cry.
we never dated, but he'd always kiss my cheek and surprise me by hugging me from
he complimented me a lot, and his favorite thing was my eyes.
he gave me real hugs. not that one-armed shit. not those 2-second hugs.
real hugs. 

i miss him so much.
& i think i should have went for it when he asked me.
& maybe i should have followed him.
maybe i'd be happy there, because i'm not here.

we barely know each other now.
sometimes i really need him.
he really did make me happy.

he hated my boyfriend last year.
and i hated his girlfriend.

i missed my chance, and there's no way i can fix it.
Last edited: 31 May 2010

sneezejuice says :   1 June 2010   681816  
there's always a way to fix it. ♥


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