yeah hi uhm .. 
well, im beginning to decipher some things.. 
reasons i hated to look at before.. 

the first thing i deciphered was 'Why'd i fall?' 
fall in love of course. 
id only been so close.. yet so far to know why .. 
my main reason is no one can stop one thing from happening . 
and if love happens.. and it happens to be short ...,.
move on. Easy to say, i know.. 
but if i could do it, so can someone else. 

the second thing is 'Why Him?'
Of course i wouldn't say it was my fault that he died ...
but my time with him was short, of course shorter then we i would have like..
but it happened to end with an abrupt stop .. 
but it started with a lethal amount of blood lost. 
he was the one to see me... 
not for me, but for someone else ... inside. 

the third this is 'Moving on'
difficult as i said... but urgent and a slow process
its hurts to lose someone.. but it also hurts when it heals.. 
so, keeping your head up.. as high as it will go.. 
and walk with the numbness of nothing.. 
you know that wont help .. 
numbness kills you at night.. it is normally swept away.. 
quickly.. leaving you to realize that your not fine.. 
your just walking with no right.