Have you ever felt like your life was going sooo perfect and then just one blink of
an eye and its all falling apart again? Why does it always happen to me,it seems
like its happening alot more then it use to. Everyone thinks im always happy,and
they always think im not going thru anything in my life but there all wrong.I'm
going thru a bad part of my life.I just know how to keep it all in me and act like
nothing is worng cause i hate when people ask are you ok? or like whats wrong? it
just gets annoyin soo i am good at hiding it with a big smile and acting like my
life is the best it ever has been!!But this month is horrible.My uncle just passed
away in the 1st of the month and it turns out he had a heartattack and then they
rushed him to the hospital and he suddenly went into a coma and he was in a coma for
like 5 days and then they took him of the the machine that kept him alive cause they
new he was already dead and my parents didnt tell me all they said is forget about
the plans we have this weekend we have to go to a funerl and thats when they told me
and i was like all mad cause they didnt even tell me he was in the hospital on his
death bed and there respone was "i was waiting for a good time to tell you" grrrr
parents sometimes i dont get what goes thru there minds!! then like next week my
cousin went susidal.I was a a family get together thing and her family and her
decide they couldnt go cause they had work and school.So when i get home i find this
note in my mailbox saying she was sorry she left me and she just wasnt happy here
anymore and she couldnt take all the stress anymore and she gave up on life.So she
passed away to.I already stopped her twice for her susidal thoughts and attempts but
i couldnt this time or i would and me and her would probaly be texting each other
right at this exact moment if i was here to talk her thru it and help her get
away.But i wasnt and i blame myself for that i noe it might sound stupid but i
do,and i have no clue why i do ethier.So i break down crying alot now cause its just
like all there and it all happend soo quickly and all at once.So i not writing this
for everyone to feel bad for me cause i dont care if you do or not im just writing
this just to write cause i just have to get it all out of my head before i doing
something i would regret doing! 
R.I.P UNCLE VICK & CASEY YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN A SPEACIAL PLACE IN MY HEART!!
-Amber <3

i noe this song is from miley cyrus and i dont really like her but this goes out to
my uncle!!!