Friday, 15 August 2014
04:30:34 PM (GMT)
At night, before I go to sleep, I like to lie down on my back with my legs down and
my arms at my side, like a plank. Then I close my eyes and just lay there.
When I do it, I'm not trying to fall asleep; I'm trying to feel weightless. If I stay
still for long enough, keeping my mind as empty as possible, it begins to feel as
though my body is being slowly erased.
The first part of my body to feel the effects are my feet. When they are "erased",
it's as though I no longer have feet; I can't move them or feel the bed underneath
The sensation seems to skip over my legs and torso at first, and goes right to my
arms. It's subtle at first, taking over my fingers and hands. It then moves up my
arm, all the way to my shoulder. The bed beneath them disappears and it is as though
they are floating on air. Each part of my body feels like its own separate being as
each part fades in and out of numbness.
As time goes on, my mind begins to go numb and suddenly everything I've ever felt
seems like nothing. And with that, my body regains a bit of feeling; like it's a
compromise for a numb mind. But it's different than the feeling I had before
everything faded out. It's like there is pressure on my entire body; similar to the
resistance you would feel when you begin to sink into water. The "sinking feeling" is
rather uncomfortable for me, but yet oddly peaceful because I am still immune to
When I finally become restless or have the need to move again, I regain my senses.
This feeling might be one of the best in the world because it makes you remember that
you're a living, breathing physical thing that is part of an infinite universe that
seems to have no use for you. But yet, here you are. That must mean something.