Monday, 23 July 2012
02:02:36 AM (GMT)
i hate you. i hate you much unlike that grumpy teenager angst, but rather like the
type of detest that vibrates in your bones and makes you shake from the inside out.
you're dreadful -- how do you even sleep at night? knowing you're a failure,
knowing that your single most important job -- being a father -- has failed
miserably. because you are no father to me. i don't know what the fuck you are, but
you most certainly aren't my parent. having to address you as so almost brings tears
to my eyes, not out of misery, but out of pure disgust. yes, you disgust me,
everything about you. i despise having to hear your name, or even the word dad,
because i'm forcefully reminded of you. i hate you. i hate you so much you do not
understand. i can't even put it into proper words, the term hatred seems too feedble
and weak! you're dreadful! horrible! embarassing! i hope i never get married in fear
that the person i'm with will become you!
and the saddest part is that i must live with you. i have no choice, however much i
wish it so. just stay away from me. stay the fuck away from me because you're
atrocious. don't look at me, don't say my name because you are unworthy of it.
i can't wait until the day i become a success. then i will leave this place and get
my own, one much more gratifying. i'll share my payments with mom and my brother,
leaving you to rot, just as you did to me.