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Tuesday, 26 July 2011
02:05:33 AM (GMT)
Twenty years ago, I was born. I didn't know then what life would bring, or the
vastness of it all. Fifteen years ago, I was just beginning to understand things. Why
things happen and how they work, but the world was only as big as what I could see.
Ten years ago, if you had asked me what I wanted to be, I would have said I have no
idea, and honestly I didn't. I didn't care. I had my friends, I had my family, and I
had recess. Life was amazing. Five years ago, I was in love. I had plans of marriage,
kids, a career as a music teacher. Life seemed to just unfold itself in front of me
as I walked. I didn't have a care in the world, other than her, and that was
obviously the negative side of the situation. Two years ago, my world came to a
screeching halt. The endless love that I had believed in had slowly crumbled under
the pressure of lies, doubt, and the loss of faith. There was no hope. Not in my
mind, at least. I cut myself off, avoided even my closest friends. Trust was
nonexistent. I truly thought that life as I had known it could never go on, and I was
Two years later, I am stronger than ever. I came out of everything with a new sense
of pride, a new appreciation for everything. I am finally trying to stay in shape, I
am starting school in a month. It sounds cheesy to say that everything happens for a
reason, but it couldn't be a more valid statement. Without the failure, without the
lies, without the pain, I would not even be close to the man I am today. I would
still be a boy, hopelessly in love with someone whose only concern is for herself. I
have my goals in life, and I plan to meet and exceed them. I have hope again, but it
would not be so without the constant support and love from my family and friends. I
love you all. 
Maybe this is a new beginning. I have my personal dreams, but deep inside me is a
thirst for something more. For someone, perhaps. I know that this time, it will be
permanent, or it will not happen at all. I will never take love for granted, even if
it only lasts for a moment. I wish I could go back to the young me, and convince
myself to grow up faster, to mature, to become a better man, but that is not
possible. What is possible, is to look forward, to appreciate every ounce of beauty
this life has to offer, to not take any second for granted. I hope I can do so, but
hey, things change. 

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