Saturday, 24 January 2009
01:14:11 AM (GMT)
Okay, okay, okay!
Last night i got no sleep because i'd wake up every hour on the hour and WELL,.....
OKay well the night kept replaying my break up with tom ((ex)) then it be black then
it would be my current bf dumping me for a girl too. And i'd wake up all sweating and
my hair would be stickign to my face an did be like all freaked out, then id look at
the clock groan and go back to sleep and the roller coaster would start all over
Two nights ago i had a weird nightmare too.
Me and tom and his current gf were walking i the halls afetr school about to go to
the buses, but before then like MAGICALLY the hall ways would be all clear. SO
Savannah the girl hes dateing was all nervous the whole walk which liek took
forever........ Then finally she stopes everyone and askes me to like giove them
privacy and all that i say sure themn MAGICALLY the hall would havve some ppl in it
again so i walke dove rto the other side of the hall an did see Savannah and tom
talking i sat on the floor and started re reading my essay and i started readin my
book 'Eclipse' then i kept think in my dream in my head 'OMG this is it they are
finally breaking up! *giggle*' i look up and then they were still lightly talkign
then next thing you knwo they kiss TOMS first kiss and idk bout Savannah and tom
glanced my way and saw the tears fill up in my eyes and he stopped looked my way and
i got up and i started putting my stuff away and he walke dover and sayed 'Sara?' I
wiped my tears away but i knew they were still visable and i turned around and sayd
in a weak voice ' Um hey i dont know about you but ...um...got to leave noe ill be
late...so bye' and i left and i could hear him going in a soft voice saying 'sara, im
sorry.....i wanted you to be my first too.'
I woke up crying my eyes hurt so bad that i swear i think my eyes disinagrated and
well it took em forever to fall assleep because i kept thinking i wanted to be his
first, I wanted to be....becaus eim still madly inlove with him.