Friday, 26 October 2007
12:20:07 AM (GMT)
Slowly I began to open my eyes. I closed them instantly because the light reflecting
me was so bright. Am I on the other side? I wondered. I managed to squint my eyes
open. I found myself strapped to a pulse racer machine and an IV fluid was hooked up
to me. I started to look around my room. I was in a hospital and I saw that my door
was open slightly ajar. Then I heard 2 voices talking and I began to eavesdrop.
“It’s a miracle that she’s still alive,” said the doctor.
“Is she going to be okay?” Kyung Hee asked him.
“Well, according to these test results, her heart will expire any time now. We need
to get her a heart transplant soon because she’s past overdue for 2 years already.
I made some calls and there is a matching donor for her in England.”
“I’ll have to talk to her about it.”
“Please do,” said the doctor. “It’s her only hope of living.”
Kyung Hee slowly entered my room. She stared at me with wide eyes. “You heard
everything Mina?” I nodded my head weakly and took the air respirator off my mouth.
“You can tell him to forget about it. I’m not going to England for a couple of
months to get surgery.”
Kyung Hee ran over and shook me. “Mina, are you crazy? You have to or you’ll
“No,” I told her stubbornly. “It was so hard for me to find Ji Won and I
won’t let go of him just like that.”
Kyung Hee began to cry. “I don’t want you to die though.”
I looked at her sadly. “You’re a good friend Kyung Hee. I know you’ll be the
perfect girl for Sung Hoon.” I yanked the IV tube off my arm. “Come on. Let’s
A little over a month later….
My heart condition began to grow worse. My attacks became more frequently and
undetected. It would happen during odd times like when I’m showering or having
dinner with the SechsKies guys. Luckily Kyung Hee was always there by my side to
cover for me. Sung Hoon hated me. I can tell by the way he acts. He probably thinks
that Kyung Hee really likes Ahn Min Sung (that’s me). What he doesn’t know is
Kyung Hee truly does love him and it breaks her heart seeing him go out with other
girls. I think he’s doing that to make her jealous.
As for Ji Won, he began to grow distant towards me. He wouldn’t talk to me much and
he’s been depressed about something lately. I wish I could know what was bothering
him because it hurts me to see him sad like that. Secrets are definitely hard to
keep. Especially ones that you have to cover everyday. I should have known that my
disguise and heart attacks would be exposed soon but it just came to me
June 15, 1999
Ji Won was in his depressed state again. There was this empty void inside him that he
couldn’t erase. It was a recurring pain that never seemed to end. He felt lonely.
Whenever he sees Min Sung and Kyung Hee together, it disturbs him. He could’t
figure out what it was but he kept finding something wrong with the picture. Then a
knock came on his door. “Come in,” he said, without bothering to see who it was.
I entered Ji Won’s room holding a tray of food. Now these days since he was in his
isolated stage, he didn’t eat much anymore. I was beginning to worry. I didn’t
have much time left with him so I wanted to take care of him the best I could with
the time I still had left. “Hyung? Are you hungry? I brought you some food.”
Ji Won turned around to see who it was. It was Min Sung. “Just put it down.” Min
Sung placed it down before Ji Won. Ramyun, mee-yuk-gook, rice, and curry. ‘How does
he know I like these food?’ Ji Won thought. “Take it away I don’t want it.”
“But hyung, you haven’t ate for days. Please eat a little bit.”
“I said take it away!” Ji Won yelled, his anger exploding. He knocked over the
tray of food. It ended up spilling all over Min Sung. Ji Won and Min Sung stared at
each other. Neither of them knew what to say. Min Sung leaned over to clean up the
spilled food and then left. Ji Won fell back in his chair. He ran his hands through
his hair frustrated. Min Sung was too much like Mina that it was driving him crazy.
Ji Won knew he was out of line though, so he began to walk to Min Sung’s room to
What a mess, I thought as I stripped out of my clothes. I soaked myself into a hot
water bath, hoping it could wash away all my troubles. When I was done with my bath,
I wrapped myself up in a towel and got out of the tub. Then I heard my room door open
and then close. Must be Kyung Hee, I thought as I began to put my clothes on.
Ji Won entered Min Sung’s room, not knowing what to say. He wasn’t good at
apologizing. He looked around and didn’t see Min Sung anywhere. Then he heard the
sound of water draining. He figured Min Sung must be in the bathroom. Ji Won opened
the door slightly and saw Min Sung’s bare back. He shuts the door quietly and began
to leave. He planned to apologize later but then his mind began to sort out what he
had just saw. Min Sung’s back had an ‘E’ on it. Ji Won breaks the open the door
to the bathroom.
I was buttoning up my long sleeve shirt when my door suddenly opened. I stared at Ji
Won in shock but then remembered I wasn’t completely dressed yet. I buttoned up the
remaining buttons and then faced him. “Hyung!” I said surprised. “What are you
doing here?” I caught Ji Won looking down at my shirt. I had buttoned it all wrong
and a great deal of my body was showing. Oh hell, I thought. “Hyung, I can
explain-“ I began to tell him but I never had a chance to.
Ji Won stared at Min Sung’s exposed body. Without thinking, he ripped open Min
Sung’s shirt finding that Min Sung was indeed a woman. Min Sung stood still,
stunned at what Ji Won had just did. He turned Min Sung’s back to him. There it
was. His ‘E.’ “M...Mina?” he asked uncertainly, afraid to hope.
I didn’t know what I was more embarrassed from. Letting Ji Won see me exposed or
being caught. In all my life I had never been angry at Ji Won but I didn’t know why
I reacted impulsively. As I held my shirt together, I slapped Ji Won across the face
hard with my other hand. His head snapped to the side. He held his cheeks as he
turned to face me. “How could you do this to me Ji Won?” I asked him screaming.
“Get out! Get out!” I started to push him out the door.
Ji Won was in shock. Mina, he thought. He grabbed her arms as she pushed him out.
“Mina, don’t! Is it really you?”
I glared at him. As if he knew, Ji Won took off his jacket and puts it around my
shoulders. I zipped it up, covering myself. “Yes Ji Won, it is me Mina.”
“But I thought you were dead.”
“I didn’t die. I faked my death.”
“So I could go to Korea.”
“You came all the way from Hawaii to find me? Why didn’t you just tell me who you
Ji Won looked at Mina, who had tears coming out of her eyes. He was about to brush
them off for her but then Mina pushed his hand away. “That’s the only way I could
do to be with you. Join SechsKies.” Ji Won stared at Mina as she continued talking.
“After you left me all alone in Hawaii, my life became so miserable. Not because of
my stepmom, but because of you. I finally found a way to leave Hawaii to find you. I
was so happy when I thought about how I could see you again. I thought—“
Ji Won began to feel a rush of mixed emotions. Mina’s words made him sad but seeing
her alive in front of him, made him want to hold onto her and never let her go. He
paused to let her continue. "—I thought that we could be together like we
were….oppa and dongsang in Hawaii. But obviously, I was wrong. You had all those
girls around you that you’ve completely forgotten about me.”
Ji Won felt his heart shatter into a million pieces. Each one of Mina’s words
stabbed him like a knife. “Mina, you don’t understand. I—“ Mina didn’t wait
for his explanation and ran. Ji Won chased after her.
“Mina!” he yelled as he chased her out of the hotel.
“Hyung,” said Su Won as he saw Ji Won ran by him. Ji Won pushed him out of the
Kyung Hee ran up the 5 Kies. “What happened?”
Su Won shrugged his shoulders. “I don’t know. Ji Won was chasing Min Sung and
kept screaming Mina.”
Kyung Hee stumbled back and Sung Hoon caught her. ‘Oh no, poor Mina,’ she
thought. She turned around to see Sung Hoon looking at her sadly. Kyung Hee moved
close to him and held onto him tight. Neither one of them lets go.
June 16, 1999
It was 3 a.m. and Ji Won had lost Mina. As he chased her down the streets he lost
track of where she ran off to. “Mina!” he continued shouting. His cries echoed
throughout the streets. A lot of people heard him yelling. So did the Black Dragons.
Tae Won silently crept behind Ji Won. Ji Won was all alone. Tae Won gave an evil
smile. He had a plan. He and his sidekick began to set up a trap for Ji Won, which
they knew he would fall for.
“Mina!” I covered my ears. I didn’t want to hear Ji Won’s voice. I was so
confused. All I ever wanted was to be with Ji Won but now it’s all complicated. I
leaned back against the alley wall. I needed time to think.
Ji Won ran through the alleys as he continued searching for Mina. Then he ran into
Tae Won. Out of the darkness, Tae Won stepped out. “Looking for someone?” he
“Yeah,” said Ji Won, glaring at him. “I’m looking for Min Sung.”
“The punk that stabbed me?” Tae Won asked furiously.
“I got him.”
“You do?” Ji Won asked surprised. “Hand him over!”
“There he is,” said Tae Won, pointing to a figure up ahead. From the back it did
look like Min Sung but little did Ji Won know that it was all a setup.
“Mina?” Ji Won whispered as he approached the person. It was a Black Dragon
member. He grabbed a hold of Ji Won around the neck and began shooting Ji Won
continually in the stomach.
I looked out from where I was hiding when I heard gunshots. “Ji Won!” I screamed
as I ran out from where I hid. My scream threw the Black Dragon member off guard.
Seeing his chance, Ji Won grabbed the gun from him and shot him in the head. He fell
to the floor dead. Tae Won started to run away but Ji Won aimed a shot directly at
his heart. Tae Won fell down dead too.
Ji Won looked at me and then collapsed to the cold ground. He wasn’t able to hold
on any longer. Rain began to pour. “Ji Won!” I screamed, shaking him. He was
still breathing but barely. I lifted Ji Won up on my back and carried him to a nearby
hospital. The rain drenched us and it grew hard for me to carry him because of the
weight. However, I managed to make it. They rushed him into the emergency room. Four
hours later the doctor came out.
“How is he?” I asked as I ran up to him.
“He was shot 4 times in the stomach region. As you know, a person needs at least
one kidney to survive but both of his are destroyed. Unless we can find a donor,
he’ll have to die.”
“Give him mine,” I told the doctor right away.
“Are you sure?” I nodded my head. “Because of your heart condition, if we have
this operation that means you can die instantly during the transfer.”
I nodded my head again. “I understand. Please let’s have the operation now.”
They tested me and luckily I was compatible with Ji Won. Six hours later the surgery
was completed. It’s a miracle that I’m still alive. I knew not for long though.
I woke up finding myself in a hospital bed with Ji Won on a bed next to me. He was
still in a coma. I got out of bed and went near him. I stroked his hair gently as I
bent down to kiss him. “I love you Ji Won,” I whispered to him. Then I left the
room, going to the last place I wanted to be.