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Stuff and Junk 3Category: Poem.
Wednesday, 17 January 2007
08:25:08 PM (GMT)
I can still taste the smoke
I can still feel the heat
I can still hear the ash crying
Beneath my feet

Why was I so blind?
Why was I so stupid?
I had truly lost my mind
Where was my common sense?
I felt my stomach tense

Amidst frantic movement,
Crackles and yells of despair.
What happens to me?
I really don’t care.

We fought the growing flame
But… it was in vain
We stopped the west end 
The house is just around the east bend!
I am the one to blame
The guilt drives me insane.

My life would be forfeit
If anyone loses a home, or worse
I beat at the flames, my hand red and my mouth dry.
Knowing.  Whatever happens is MY curse

After twenty minutes I collapsed, spent
I saw my life burning; I knelt in repent
As I watched the flames grow
My heart was filled with resent
I hated myself, and that’s what I meant
Even though it truly was an accident.

This was composed during and shortly after the fire on 7/11/06.  It was caused by a
smoke fountain I had lit and thrown as a prop for a capture the flag round of airsoft
“this was during the war”.  I missed the road and started a fire that consumed 2
acres, I’ve yet to know if I’ll be charged for the firetrucks, the helicopter,
and the clean up crew…  During the inferno my friends all patted my back and told
me it was an accident, and they didn’t blame me.  Ever since then I’ve been the
butt of every over joke.  If anything came up the least bit fire related they’d say
“Travis, you were there too?” They even call me “the fury” from Solid Snake. 
He was an insane pyromaniac with a flame-thrower.  I laughed and shrugged.

But inside I was in horrible agony for the awful thing I had carelessly done…  This
is a wound that will not soon be healed.  I am so thankful that there was no loss of
home or life, the only injuries were mine.  I had slight burns on my right hand and a
cough from smoke inhalation.  My hand is a little raw and my cough gone but I am
still in pain.

Update, yup, I was charged $3,659.24 dang

DreamsandStars says:   17 January 2007   691469  
aww thats sad but its ok i promise ^_^ (not that it has anything to
do with me) and i thnk your a great writter!
erosennin says:   17 January 2007   514942  
Hey, someone read my poem!  Yea, I still get crap about that, even
HIGH SCHOOL BUT I NEVER MET HIM WHO SAID "are you the fury guy?"  XD 

that nickname cost me 3 grand and I'lm going to use it!!
DreamsandStars says:   18 January 2007   415111  
that sucks about the 3 grand lol fury guy^_^hello fury guy lol
louise_scott says:   19 January 2007   957119  
ok is that a lot i only no british money btw ur a great writer can u
check out my diary entries plz
EMO_LOVER says:   21 January 2007   749634  
WOW thats such a great poem
erosennin says:   21 January 2007   243579  
I only write when I'm depressed and I was VERY depressed writing
that.  I haven't been depressed in a long time so don't expect to see
many more diary entries.
Frankie21221 says:   4 February 2007   453838  
lol the poem is really really really good just a shame wats its about
but you did it by accident and you know your in the rong so even tho
it was not right you did the best you could and i respect that. x
erosennin says:   4 February 2007   495936  
... lol?  

Have you ever been in a mecational enduced depression?  Nothing,
NOTHING about this is funny.
Frankie21221 says:   4 February 2007   354685  
ok i ment everything i said except the lol
erosennin says:   4 February 2007   168264  
I'm sorry, this has always been a tender subject for me, especially
to someone I trust.
Frankie21221 says :   4 February 2007   252466  
awwwwwwwwww sorry babe didnt mean to upset you and i didnt know you
trusted me?


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