Wednesday, 21 September 2011
04:33:24 PM (GMT)
When the world becomes too much for my mind to conceive, I close my eyes.
Everything becomes more real.
The colors, the shapes, the energy flowing around and in front of me takes me to the
Purple is the strongest, indicating the spiritual thought that surrounds me and the
ones I think of.
Brown, cluttered thoughts, my inability to focus.
Oh the gray.
It seems like I can never escape the negativity, even in my own little world.
The flow around my vision, in my head, changing shape, growing, shrinking, sometimes
The yellow that often surrounds the violet, showing pure joy, freedom, escape from
the problems that follow us.
There are some I have yet to see, but I hope to find them.
I hope to find the green in myself, I will search for it.
The green, the peace, the relaxation, THE HEALING.
I feel like that could be a huge part of what I am meant to do.
I will know for sure one day.
I see faces, mostly eyes.
The eyes, always watching me.
Sometimes relaxing, sometimes kind.
More often, they are sad, angry, lost.
Appearing in the spiritual violet, manipulating to show me some portion of their
And the eyes are often the most important part.
I also see images.
Mountains, trees, landscapes unknown.
Figures, shadows, objects.
A lot of it is so confusing to me, but when I look beyond, I realize more than I
When I take the physical realm out of existence in my mind, I can completely become
involved in their world.
Letting my thoughts carry themselves, rather than being directed by me.
Meditation is key, and I am coming to realize that.
Each and every day, I learn something new, or at least have something new to think
about and research.
I am thankful every day for what I have been given, and for what little I have been
able to do so far.
I have helped, at least one person, and that alone has made a huge impact on the rest
of my life.
I am meant to help.
I can't do it alone.
It takes trust and cooperation, and a mindset that lies beyond the physical world.
I will make a difference, it may not be a big one, in the grand scheme of it all, but
it will be a difference nonetheless.
I am here for Jesse.
Not to see what she does, not to have the same impact or abilities, but to work
I will share what she sees and feels, rather than have it for myself.
I will ground her, be her anchor to reality when she drifts off to find herself.
I hope that we can learn more, and we do every single day, whether we take note of it
I think I will be relaxed to day.
Do some reading, meditating, thinking.
The world confuses me, but all I have to do is close my eyes.
The realization will come to me.