Saturday, 18 June 2011
08:02:34 PM (GMT)
I think. a few minutes ago, I was sobbing my heart out. Why? Well. I was downstairs
cleaning the kitchen because i made this huge mess and then my mom and dad started
yelling at me and threatening me, Then afterward mom wanted me to clean up more since
there was still a small bit more to clean but I was really tired and stressed out,
and my parents know very well that I'm Super sensitive ( Sometimes. Why? Can't say it
right now.) But they didn't care and then i was in my room trying to get out my
emotions and then mom came in and yelled at me then she said i shouldnt drink anymore
coffee because she thinks thats the reason why i'm so upset, Then she walked out and
yelled " ILL FIX YOU! " then i Was in my room upset still. Then i went back
downstairs and asked dad to help me with something because i was trying to sweep
something up with the broom but it was really hard ( When i'm really upset i get
extreamly weak..) dad was watching t.v and then i yelled " DAD!!!" he acted like he
couldn't hear me and cut up the volume. Which brung back memories of him telling me
how much he hates me and when he called me fat, and when he punched me as hard as he
could when i was four.. Then i cried in a corner ( in the kitchen.). I got really
angry after that and began cursing. then I was cleaning stuff again and then after
cleaning more things i went back up to my room. I cried in there and then mom came
back into the room. She started yelling at me and saying things like " IM MORE
SPECIAL THEN YOU! IM MORE SENSITIVE THEN ANYBODY IN THE WHOLE WORLD SO YOU BETTER
SHUT THE F*** UP WITH YOUR BULL SH** CRYING!!" I told her i can't deal with so much
pressure ( Since i have some mental condition thing.. It has something to do with
being phsycotic?) Then mom was like " Pressure?? YOU BETTER KISS MY A$$ B#TCH." then
unplugged the internet box and then she said " I TOOK YOUR INTERNET AWAY. HOW DO YOU
FEEL???" after a few minutes she plugged it back up...lol...
I dont feel like explaining what else happened.. I feel too upset right now.
... I don't know why, But i feel really fat...
yeah. Maybe because i am...
Other people like my friends say that i'm really skinny. .... What liars.
I'm fat and lazy and i bet nobody likes me.
.... I dunno... Maybe i might BE skinny???
... no. I see myself as fat. I look into the mirror with my naked eyes and i. Am.
!! I will make another entry about this later. ( Getting bored. Need to play some
flash game or mmorpg XD)
Last edited: 18 June 2011