Monday, 4 January 2010
09:40:39 PM (GMT)
its hard seeing you,everyday. knowing that everything great that happened with us.
started a meer year ago. January 15,2009 or so. You told me the night before,to walk
to your locker in the morning. Because you had to ask me something. I knew we both
felt the same way,lusted. is that a word? oh well. So I walked over there. You were
talking to one of our friends. And then,you just stopped. In mid-conversation with
that person. Turned to me. And Said "Will you go out with me?" I answered "You
already know my answer." and smiled. You always did make me have a huge smile. A few
days after that I brokeup with you,because I didn't "know that much about you."
Well,you tried your hardest to get to know me after that. Then You again asked me
out,January 21,2009. We dated for about two and a half months. It was the best I
could of ever asked for. But I started liking other people,so I brokeup with you. I
didn't want to do that to you. I tried to move on. And so did you. But then we
started talking again, in April. We dated for a few weeks. Then,You decided it wasn't
fair for me. You had feelings for megan. We kept talking though,because we both still
liked eachother. In May 2009,the day of the school musical,we walked to the
highschool together. You sat behind me. we talked the whole time. We then walked back
together, when we were crossing the street you said "I'm scared,hold my hand?" So I
went and reached for your hand. But Kegan grabbed it. So much for your wing man there
:D But,you walked me to class. And right when I could tell you were going to ask me
out my teacher yelled at me,and said to get back in the class. So we hugged and I
left. Afterschool,Lauren ran up to me. And dragged me to your locker. and said
"KAYLEE. AUSTIN. AUSTIN. KAYLEE." and ran off. You got your stuff. And said "I think
we should go back out again." I answered "I agree on that subject." We walked,We held
hands. Mr.Ott got annoying,as usual. And then we hugged goodbye. We dated for a
while,til mid-June. I couldn't take not seeing you everyday. We kept our thing going
though. Talked everyday. Then,in August. I finally got to see you again. At Oasis
lake. We both looked forward to that party. seeing eachother. We went for a nature
walk,alone. plus george. he was off in his own world. I loved that though, it was the
best. we got back,and I swear. we were on the swings the whole time. its like no one
else was there. Jessica was flirting with you though, i got jealous. admit fine. But
you just wanted me. We played chicken. me and you,against jessica and autumn. that
got out ALOT of anger i had for jessica that day. :] I ate your chip that you licked!
but i didnt even know until after i ate it. I didn't really care. When you had to
leave,we hugged for about ever! I didn't mind. I was kinda upset nothing else
happened though. A week later we saw eachother at the elementary. Things happened.
H'd,K'd,M'd. thats what happened. :] I'll never forget that day though,it was so
cute. A few days later,I saw you again. At your football practic. You looked,shocked.
Like you didn't want me there. And then,once school started you never talked to me.
You said,you liked someone else. That person. being megan. OF COURSE. You guys
started dating 9/19/09. You guys just brokeup in January of this year. Now your
dating Courtney. WHO I HATE. not because of you though,boo.
Sorry I loved you,and you'll never be forgotten. Sorry,you meant EVERY FUCKING
THING to me. Sorry,
your girlfriend looks like a man.. Sorry I was
the best thing that has ever came to your life. - not being conceded. truth. Sorry we
went through so much together. Sorry,you made me love you. Sorry,you taught me what
real love felt like. Sorry,I can't get over it.
I'M SORRY. OKAY? WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT.
just. don't be with her. thats all i care about.
we're meant to be.
even if i don't like you right now?
which i don't even understand why i feel like this then.
but i don't.
and i do.
Last edited: 13 February 2010