Sunday, 18 January 2009
10:55:39 PM (GMT)
Recently.. I’ve been wonderin’ why I feel this way towards Creston.
Looking back on it, rather blurry it is, but I still remember. It started the day
when he came to school, the time I first saw him.
I saw him when I was at Math. Courtney was talking about him, at least I thought
anyways. Apparently those two are best friends. Anyways, he sat at my table. Adam and
Vincent were there too. I think. First time I saw him. I thought he was that silent
type, to be honest.
I felt like a fool though. I kept calling him “Christian”. I thought people were
saying his name wrong because it was my first time ever hearing a name like
“Creston”. It was exotic, so exotic that I didn’t even believe anyone saying
it. I how stupid I felt when Creston caught me calling him that name! I felt like a
complete moron, but I learned at least.
Anyways, soon after that I gave him the nickname of “Crouton”. Was it because I
was still questioning his exotic name?
After that, I believe me and him got closer, in a friendly way. Spencer, I think,
knew this. One day when they went on the computer, Spencer did one of those love
tests. In the bars he put the names “Erika” and “Creston”. It came out as a
100% compatible, a perfect match. Me and Creston yelled at Spencer for a while. But I
began to think about it all. The last person I thought I’d never like, I ended up
loving? I questioned myself. Thinking about it over and over.
Was it because of Spencer? Who made me realize the feelings I had? I’d never
thought of it.
And Creston’s nickname, “Crouton”. Was there an actual meaning behind that
nickname I gave him besides the name was similar? There was, now that I think of it.
I remember, I love Croutons. They were ADDICTING. A nickname for Creston, it was
perfect from my point of view. And not to mention, when Samantha called him Crouton
I got overprotective and told her that was my nickname for him.
Over obsession. Complete love. All towards the last person I thought I’d ever take
a feeling to.
But it happened. And I am more than grateful.