Monday, 29 September 2008
11:50:50 PM (GMT)
Hi, i know you were expecting another heart and soul story. but right now i need to
vent my feelings to the world.
November 16th 2007 my twin brothers Connor and Logan were born. i was so happy until
eight days later.
November 24th my brother Connor was diagnosed with meningitis, a harmful disease that
can kill you within twenty-four hours. and i felt heart broken. like i would never be
happy again. he was cured a few months later but he was still sick.
May 2nd 2008 my birthday a day i should have been happy about. but i wasn't. knowing
that your little brother can die at any moment can eat you up inside, leaving a pit
of emptiness and despair.
May 3rd 2008 my dad woke me up to tell me my brother had died. i was crying hoping
that it wasn't true. but it was i ran downstairs only to find my family crowding
around him. i held him knowing that after his funeral i would never see him again.
**** the day of Connor's funeral. i had been excused from school. and i wouldn't
leave the side of the casket and my cousin Katie wouldn't leave my side. ****
i wrote this poem about him
Cute little brother of mine
Of course I've loved him, all this time
Never knew who he could be
Never knew if he was happy
fOrever above our heads
Returned to heaven for God took him instead
and this was a poem i have read about him
GOD SAW YOU WERE TIRED
GOD SAW YOU GETTING TIRED AND A CURE WAS NOT TO BE
SO HE WRAPPED HIS ARMS AROUND YOU AND WHISPERED
"COME WITH ME"
WITH TEARFUL EYES WE WATCHED YOU SUFFER AND SAW
YOU FADE AWAY. ALTHOUGH WE LOVED YOU DEARLY
WE COULD NOT MAKE YOU STAY
A LOVING HEART STOPPED BEATING. PRECIOUS HANDS TO REST
GOD BROKE OUR HEARTS TO PROVE TO US HE ONLY TAKES THE BEST
i am writing a song about him and I will copy it to this dairy at a later date
I LOVED HIM DEARLY. I HATED TO SEE HIM GO
AND MY LIFE HAS BEEN A TRAIN WRECK SINCE HE DIED
IF YOU HAVE EVER FELT THIS WAY. PLEASE TELL ME. AND IF YOU NEED ADVICE, I'M HERE AND
I CAN GIVE YOU ADVICE
PLEASE CHECK OUT MY PROFILE AND I AM TURNING MY Q&A SECTION INTO AN ADVICE COLUMN.
*THIS IS A TRUE STORY NOT FICTION*
Last edited: 25 October 2008
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