Sunday, 10 August 2008
11:35:09 AM (GMT)
i woke up one morninq thinkinq about tomorrow. i thought about what i would wear.
what i will say. who will i meet or see or even talk too. will i die before tomorrow
or will i leave to see the day after. how do i know. how do anyone of us know?? how
do we know wen we will dieand how long we will live?
and as i thought of tomorrow; my friend messaged me. he said,"i cnt stop my mom from
crying" i was stunned. we had a big arguement that resultd in him telling me to DIE.
so why message me? i sat there thinkinq of today. what shall i say to him now? should
i shake him off? what can i say to him. so many tear fled from my eyes the last time
we talked so what does it mean now?
i texted back,"what happened?"
he said,"i almost killed myself"
my heart stopped and i suddenly couldnt breathe, i looked around my room as if i was
looking for something. and i couldnt find it. i looked around still wondering where
the air was and how could i find it...why was it hidinq from me like i was the
monster and i was going to kill it.
i said, "wtf are you serious?"
and he said,"yeah"
and i said "why?"
and this is what caught me off gaurd the most.....
he said,"my life is fuked up...im losing my friends...and...im losing you"
i dropped my fone and looked up to my ceilinq in disbelief. i couldnt believe i was
the trobule behind it. he almost died kuz i said i wanted nothing to do with him.
and then i thought of tomorrow. and i realized that if i lived until tomorrw, he