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Sunday, 10 August 2008
11:35:09 AM (GMT)
i woke up one morninq thinkinq about tomorrow. i thought about what i would wear.
what i will say. who will i meet or see or even talk too. will i die before tomorrow
or will i leave to see the day after. how do i know. how do anyone of us know?? how
do we know wen we will dieand how long we will live? 
and as i thought of tomorrow; my friend messaged me. he said,"i cnt stop my mom from
crying" i was stunned. we had a big arguement that resultd in him telling me to DIE.
so why message me? i sat there thinkinq of today. what shall i say to him now? should
i shake him off? what can i say to him. so many tear fled from my eyes the last time
we talked so what does it mean now? 
i texted back,"what happened?"
he said,"i almost killed myself"
my heart stopped and i suddenly couldnt breathe, i looked around my room as if i was
looking for something. and i couldnt find it. i looked around still wondering where
the air was and how could i find it...why was it hidinq from me like i was the
monster and i was going to kill it. 
i said, "wtf are you serious?"
and he said,"yeah"
and i said "why?"
and this is what caught me off gaurd the most.....
he said,"my life is fuked losing my losing you"
i dropped my fone and looked up to my ceilinq in disbelief. i couldnt believe i was
the trobule behind it. he almost died kuz i said i wanted nothing to do with him.

and then i thought of tomorrow. and i realized that if i lived until tomorrw, he

‹rhythmic heart thumps <3› says:   11 August 2008   379647  
dude who is this about????????
sxc_mamaszbabesz says:   15 August 2008   128641  
sailormoon93 says :   14 September 2010   107748  
i remember when u told me about this and idk if i shouldve sed this
then or if i should even say this now but im sorry he did that and
things with Richie will be better hopefully an dhe learns thatt hings
arent your fault and they arent


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