Sunday, 14 October 2007
07:16:42 PM (GMT)
I wish it would rain. Today just has that feeling to it...You feel like soup and
crackers and eating them in the kitchen in the dark by yourself. And I have a big
window in front of the kitchen, so I'd have the blinds open to watch the rain fall.
Then go back to my room and listen to music and write.
But it's not raining today. It's windy and a little cloudy, but not rainy.
But I think I'll eat soup anyway.
Just because I feel like I NEED it right now. With crackers.
I hope I have ramen.
That's what I feel like eating.
And usually I don't feel like eating.
I think I need to buy another hoodie.
The one I'm wearing now is way to small to even be comfortable anymore.
My little sister can fit in it. o.o
So I guess I'll have to go shopping...
But shopping sucks for me, because I don't have any friends.
So I'm always stuck with my mom.
And that sucks.
And I have a phobia of crowds, so I feel really uncomfortable in the mall.
I feel everyone's stares burning a hole in my shoulder blades.
And then I'll see the group of best friends being together and just enjoying each
Then it's not worth it anymore and I want to go home.
Seeing the group of best friends I've never had makes me very upset.
I can't ignore it.
I'm going to eat my soup later.
And hope it rains.