I'd like to think I'm a
simple person, but I really don't think that's so. I could write and write about
myself until I max the character limit for diaries, but I don't think it's worth it
because some things I'd write won't apply to certain people and other things won't
apply to other people. How I act, how I hold myself, what I say is all very
dependent on who I'm saying it to. I like to be observant about myself but get
easily upset at myself over aspects I don't like to admit.



I have blue eyes and brown hair. Light brown is my natural
hair colour, but I've gone from blonde to black to blonde and black again a couple
of times, now trying to heal it from all of the stripping so it won't break through
stress when I get it bleached, gradually, again in future. I'm supposed to wear
glasses, but prefer not to. I don't really *need* them, but I certainly don't have
20/20 vision.



I'm somewhat of a Lifestyle Lolita; someone interested
in the clothing style Lolita and traditional feminine activities in the Victorian
era, such as tea parties, manners of the time, sewing of some sorts, and many other
things that may be specific to one person rather than everyone. It's a highly
debated idea among the Lolita community, frowned upon by anti-lifestylers and
practised by quiet Lolitas, and I am not a prime example of a lifestyler, but for
more information and ideas if you happen to be interested in learning about this,
you can visit the lifestyle_lolitas community
on LiveJournal!*



 I've taken many different recreational activities in my
childhood, and am still looking for a few to settle on that can compromise among
each other. Currently I'm looking for a studio to study ballet at - one that doesn't
have late classes in an area with bad public transport - and am considering taking up
figure skating or a martial art (such as Aikido). Apart from physical activities, I'm
really interested in languages. I love how charming English can be when it's used
properly and actually feel sad when monolingual, native speakers use it poorly
without caring to improve. I'm learning Japanese at the moment. I took a term of
French at technical college, and a semester at university which I found all too
intimidating, so now I'm considering tutoring for it, but my Japanese is getting
better. In future I would want to learn Swedish, Latin, Mandarin, Korean, Norwegian,
Taiwanese, Croatian & Irish (both are my heritage), and maybe German and Italian once
I have a background in European language structure. I'm avidly interested in
language! I just wish I knew where to start online.. ^^;



I used to be opposed to the JET programme but I was gravely misinformed
about it! I'm looking forward to applying for JET in future to further my personal
study in Japanese culture, and grow more as a person with interesting life
experiences. Teaching is something I had never considered, and had even sworn
against, but I'm taking a new shine to it lately, so we'll see where this leads me.



My love life is wonderful right now. Since February of '06 I
have been in the best relationship I've ever had and a better one than I ever could
have fathomed before having met him. We're currently planning for our future
together.



My views on life and such can be very strong or very weak and
they tend to change often. I may contradict myself and usually my opinion is
contextual, but as I like to have a very very open mind, I'm always open to a change
of opinion if presented a good enough counter-case, depending on how influential the
opinion I held was on my life previously. I don't think this is a bad thing, either.
I believe that life is a growing experience and people should be allowed to grow and
change without being subject to unnecessary labels like "hypocrite"; being a
hypocrite is different to changing your mind! Growing and changing is a part of
nature; it's an interesting part of human nature, and an indication to people in all
stages of our lives as to who we were, are, and someday may be.



Questions! O-kayy!

» Do you like sports? - I like martial arts, classical
dance (like classical ballet and ballroom dancing) and figure skating. I've been
known to like Soccer before but I haven't played it since I was like 14 or 15. I
would always bring a note, every lesson, to P.E. in school! I'm not a very active
person, but I'd like to take up martial arts and continue ballet, and possibly learn
some figure skating.



» What kind of music do you like? - I dabble in all
sorts. Less in rap, but I -like many- do have some exceptions.



I even like some country. Kids are way too quick to judge country.

Here's one of the songs I fell most in love with, all thanks to the below Cardcaptor
Sakura AMV:





» Your favourite food? - I don't like much food at all,
really. It's annoying, too, because I'm very weak but refuse to eat what I dislike.
Such a drama... Must be brave and try new things so that I can EAT! I would like to
live off of sweets, but somehow, I don't see that as the most healthy thing to be
doing!



» Do you smoke? - I don't smoke, and I dislike that
people smoke as an outlet for their stress. There must be better ways to lessen the
strain of stress, and better tasting things to crave :P My mother has smoked for 30
years and knows how much I hate it. I cough loudly when people around me in public
areas smoke. I don't support the proposal to allow smoking in the town cafe strip.
If people want to pollute their body, I don't mind if they do it in their own home,
but I don't like it  Spare me, please?



» Can you sing? - Yes, but not awfully well. My range is
lacking and I'm better at belting out when I have a microphone in front of me. If
it's switched off I can't sing nearly as strongly.. Odd, hmm?



» Favourite movies? - As a Sweet Lolita*, I'm inclined
to like Shimotsuma Monogatari, and I do. I like Momoko's unhealthy views of life,
and I like Lolita: ZING! I like [Asian] cult horror, I like romance, I like fantasy,
I like psychological movies... Some examples, respectively, are Battle Royale,
Suicide Club, Silent Hill; A Walk To Remember; Enchanted; Donnie Darko, The
Butterfly Effect, Momento. I suppose I can be fairly versatile.



» Favourite games? - Final Fantasy and Pokémon. I wish
I were a better gamer! I can play Lineage II until it starts requiring guts or
skill, then I fail at it. I can play Siren II or Silent Hill until I encounter
monsters, at which point I tend to mash the controller and hope for the best. I'm
bad at horror games though I love them. I'm better at simple, turn-based adventure
games, like Final Fantasy and Pokémon, heh. I'd love to play Dungeons & Dragons,
and Nightmare (pen & paper games), but I'm not sure how to go about this all alone!



» Favourite books? - I like classic literature. I like
Oscar Wilde and a lot of vampire fiction to the tune of Anne Rice. I'm reading Lewis
Carroll and William Makepeace Thakeray at the moment, moving on to Jane Austen when
that's done. I'll need to start New Moon some time soon, but in no way do I find
Stephanie Meyer's writing style all too endearing. It's very vague and leaves a lot
of the vitals up to the reader's imagination...

I also like shoujo-style manga and Ranma 1/2 



» Are you an introvert or an extrovert? - A little
from column A, a little from column B. As I stated before, how I hold myself depends
entirely upon my company at the time. If I feel like the person I'm with is open
minded or friendly, I'm very extroverted, but if I feel like they're reserved, shy,
judgmental, or if I just get a bad vibe from them I will retreat to my shell.
Something important to consider would be how I dress the way I do, and how could I
do this more than once if I weren't confident? These questions are indeed very
open-ended. Getting to know me and comparing my reaction to that of how I interact
with others in my Q&A and diaries will be more productive than me telling you -
someone I probably don't know, and I don't even know who will read this - anything
about me, as it may not relate to you ;]



» Love, romance or both? - Hmm, both. Love is
everywhere. I love my freedom, I love my friends, I love that I was born into a
fairly fortunate social status, I love that I have someone I cherish and adore...
But, what is romance without some sort of love?



» What do you see in other people? - Unfortunately I'm
a very black-and-white viewed person. I unconsciously judge people immediately based
on their gestures, speech or typing. Luckily, this is easily rectified by speaking to
the person in question. If it's someone I don't think I'll ever know, I'm happy to
judge in my head and move on. Online it isn't so simple and I tend to speak my mind
frequently, and bluntly. I'd appreciate others to be open-minded to forms of
expression but I've been let down a lot in this area.
Likewise with the quality of friendship. When I accept
someone and become friends with them, I consider it an achievement and a wonderful
addition to my life. I don't agree with people bluntly asking people they don't know
to be their friend, and the ask-ee accepting. That isn't friendship, and I hate that
society today is so number-obsessed! I value quality over quantity. People today
lack basic morals and values, and tend not to have manners, which is something that
has influenced my quick judgment. Ladies and gentlemen are no more, as feminism
dominates every gentlemanly act and ups ladies' social or business defense. Children
cannot be disciplined and do not learn from many admirable people. People are
selfish, close-minded, defensive, biased. Not everybody, of course... But this is
what I've noticed from the general "stranger" public I've observed. The days of
people helping that little old lady cross the road or carry her shopping to her car
are long gone; she's too scared you'll mug her, steal her car, murder her. People
don't give the benefit of the doubt, and what's sadder still is that they can't. You
can't trust people, and this one little fact makes me feel horrible and makes me hate
living in the detached, dog-eat-dog world that I do.



» Love: What is it? - There are far too many
interpretations of love to express in words. There are different kinds of love,
different sub-kinds of love depending on who it is you love, why you love them, what
you have in common. It depends on the individual. I can't explain my definition of
love; why don't you ask me with your heart? :P
"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or
conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not
resentful."



» Do you believe in God? - No, I don't. It's as simple as
that. I like to study different systems of belief and find great pleasure in
attempting to debunk things like this - always have done - and even more pleasure in
trying to figure it out when all debunking has been done and has failed. I love the
paranormal, but I'm not a woman of faith in either respects. I believe that if I
were to give in to and worship a God, I would lose faith in myself, and the freedom
to think and do what I like. I'm an immoral person; the last thing I want is to be
haunted by imagery of going to hell for sins I've committed freely.
The important thing here is that I respect those who believe in God; please respect
that I do not.





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