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My giant About Me!Category: sanyu things
Saturday, 18 August 2007
02:57:44 PM (GMT)
So, about me... Where to start? I'm not all too complicated, nor am I simple (but who is?). I'm a bit of an open book, but maybe this book is a bit hard to read because I'm often misunderstood. I am versatile and strange, I don't fit in with some crowds and I don't know particularly why. I strive for perfection, knowledge; I'm pedantic about æsthetics - I love beauty, in much, much more than just people. If that makes me shallow then so be it, because beauty is one of my most important inspirations in life, it's something I wouldn't give up for absolutely anything. Beauty keeps me alive.

The way I interact with people will depend highly on who it is I'm talking to. If you're someone I'm fond of, depending on the type of relationship we have, my tone may soften or get more crude. Generally I'm quite blunt, any other personality I have will reveal itself through your perception. "I am" doesn't exist, only "I am perceived to be." How do you perceive me to be? Message me and find out! It's impossible to sum everything up in a diary. But here are the basics, anyway.

I have blue eyes and two-toned brown/blonde (or is it orange?) hair. Light brown is my natural hair colour, but I've gone from blonde to black to blonde and black again a couple of times. I'm messing with blonde shades at the moment. I'm supposed to wear glasses, but prefer not to. I don't really *need* them, but I certainly don't have 20/20 vision.

When I initially came to Kupika I was a Lifestyle Lolita. I still practise the lifestyle, actually, but seldomly do I dress in full-fledged Lolita anymore, instead I've taken a bright shine to hime-gyaru. I'm growing up, and although hime-gyaru is not Lolita's "big sister", it's my next step. I run the gyaru club here on Kupika.



In my lifetime I've taken many, many different recreational activities. As a person I tend to prefer to start things up rather than see things through to the end (though that's always encouraging as well, just not as emotionally stimulating to me). I've taken (in chronological order) classical ballet, jazz ballet, recorder, skating, kick boxing, tae kwon do, vocal coaching, guitar, sewing and modelling. I went back to ballet later in life but quit soon after again. Currently I'm doing modelling to help me with grooming and deportment as well as some other fun, girly stuff. Apart from physical activities, I'm really interested in languages. I love how charming English can be when it's used properly and actually feel sad when monolingual, native speakers use it poorly without caring to improve. I took a term of French at technical college, and a semester at university which I found all too intimidating, so now I'm considering tutoring for it. I am studying in my second year of Japanese right now. In future I would like to learn Swedish, Latin, Mandarin, Korean, Norwegian, Taiwanese, Croatian & Irish (both are my heritage), and maybe German and Italian once I have a background in European language structure. I'm avidly interested in language! I just wish I knew where to start online.. ^^; Jack of all trades, huh?

My love life is wonderful right now. Since February of '06 I have been in the best relationship I've ever had and a better one than I ever could have fathomed before having met him. We're currently planning for our future together.

My mind is fleeting, I'm constantly changing my mind, my opinions, my morals, views on life. Some are strong and some are weak, but I'm open to swaying even my strongest ideas if something compels me so. I don't think this is a bad thing, for life is a growing experience and every lesson learned gains me some wisdom and knowledge that I didn't have before, which could sway many of my previous judgements. Learning has a domino effect on your life, and you're always learning. I love to learn, so it's a bit necessary for me to keep an open mind.

Questions! O-kayy!
» Do you like sports? - I like martial arts, classical dance (like classical ballet and ballroom dancing) and figure skating. I've been known to like Soccer before but I haven't played it since I was like 14 or 15. I would always bring a note, every lesson, to P.E. in school! I'm not a very active person, but I like to do martial arts, ballet and figure skating (though I do none of these recreationally at the moment).

» What kind of music do you like? - I dabble in all sorts. Less in rap, but I -like many- do have some exceptions.

I even like some country. Kids are way too quick to judge country.
Here's one of the songs I fell most in love with, all thanks to the below Cardcaptor Sakura AMV:


» Your favourite food? - I don't like much food at all, really, though despite this I do have a favourite dish. My favourites are crumb steak and beef tenderloin. As you can see I am not a vegetarian, nor do I intend to start being one. Many of my friends are vegetarians however, so please don't talk to me about vegetarianism.
If given the choice though, I would like to be able to live off of sweets healthily. That would be amazing.

» Do you smoke? - I don't smoke, and I dislike that people smoke as an outlet for their stress. There must be better ways to lessen the strain of stress, and better tasting things to crave :P My mother has smoked for 30 years and knows how much I hate it. I cough loudly when people around me in public areas smoke. If people want to pollute their body, I don't mind if they do it in their own home, but I don't like it. Spare me, please?

» Can you sing? - I sang much better when I was younger. I was always better at belting out when I had a microphone in front of me, too; if it was switched off I couldn't sing nearly as strongly, which was odd.. But now since I haven't trained my voice properly, it isn't as good.

» Favourite movies? - Pirates of the Caribbean, A Walk To Remember, The Dark Knight, Shimotsuma Monogatari, Silent Hill, Enchanted, Donnie Darko, The Butterfly Effect, Momento. I suppose I can be fairly versatile.

» Favourite games? - Final Fantasy III and Pokémon. I wish I were a better gamer! I'm bad at horror games though I love them. I'm better at simple, turn-based adventure games, like Final Fantasy and Pokémon, heh. I'd love to play Dungeons & Dragons, and Nightmare (pen & paper games), but I'm not sure how to go about this all alone! I do play World of Warcraft since a lot of my friends do. I played this when I was a pussy gamer once and didn't get far, so it's good to know I've grown up a little since then.

» Favourite books? - I like classic literature. I like Oscar Wilde and a lot of vampire fiction to the tune of Anne Rice. I'm reading Vanity Fair and The Masqueraders at the moment, moving on to Jane Austen when that's done. I'll need to start New Moon some time soon, but in no way do I find Stephanie Meyer's writing style all too endearing. It's very vague and leaves a lot of the vitals up to the reader's imagination... I follow loli_bookclub.
I also like shoujo-style manga and Ranma 1/2 ^^

» Are you an introvert or an extrovert? - It all comes back to who I'm dealing with, really. I think I'm quite introversive (if only for my love for self indulgences) but I haven't any qualms about being extroverted either. Besides my company, it also depends on my mood (obviously). If I'm feeling vulnerable myself it would be silly to cast myself into the limelight as any negativism would hurt me dearly, but if I'm feeling self confident, nothing can hurt me, so why not throw myself out there? I mentioned that my personality is fleeting: this is an example of that.

» Love, romance or both? - Both, of course. Love exists in all of my relationships in many different forms. Being the hopeless romantic I am I couldn't bare to be without romance, but even though I'm like this, I couldn't give up everyone else's love.

» What do you see in other people? - First impressions are important, and though I'm not entirely proud of it, I do judge on them (who doesn't?). I judge people immediately based on their gestures, speech or typing. Luckily, this is easily rectified by speaking to the person in question. If it's someone I don't think I'll ever know, I'm happy to judge in my head and move on. Online it isn't so simple and I tend to speak my mind frequently, and bluntly. I'd appreciate others to be open-minded to forms of expression but I've been let down a lot in this area. Likewise with the quality of friendship. When I accept someone and become friends with them, I consider it an achievement and a wonderful addition to my life. I don't agree with people bluntly asking people they don't know to be their friend, and the ask-ee accepting. That isn't friendship, and I hate that society today is so number-obsessed! I value quality over quantity. People today lack basic morals and values, and tend not to have manners, which is something that has influenced my quick judgment. Ladies and gentlemen are no more, as feminism dominates every gentlemanly act and ups ladies' social or business defense. Children cannot be disciplined and do not learn from many admirable people. People are selfish, close-minded, defensive, biased. Not everybody, of course... But this is what I've noticed from the general "stranger" public I've observed. The days of people helping that little old lady cross the road or carry her shopping to her car are long gone; she's too scared you'll mug her, steal her car, murder her. People don't give the benefit of the doubt, and what's sadder still is that they can't. You can't trust people, and this one little fact makes me feel horrible and makes me hate living in the detached, dog-eat-dog world that I do. This is also why I'm a bit of a cynic at times; I will let first impressions do the work for me and think the worst of people. Much of the time it's easier to keep low expectations of people, so when I eventually am given kindness it will feel that much warmer.

» Love: What is it? - There are different kinds and sub-categories, and likewise, different people love in different ways. Romantic love is the most special, for it's truly a sacred thing to find someone you're willing to give your all for, to have that feeling returned is simply amazing. Friendly love is the next on my personal list - friends are the family we are allowed to choose, they say. There are so many different levels of love in this one level alone, and it too is special - true friendship is admirable and inspiring. Family love, then, which is the very first we meet when we come into this world. It nurtures us and helps us grow into adults, it assists us when our other love fails, it's always there and it doesn't die. I'm not sure I believe all of this, but I know I would like to. There are other types of love in the world and they're all amazing. I believe that you can never truly learn about yourself until you learn about others, and thus, everyone should leap into love and nurture it properly.

» Do you believe in God? - No, I don't. It's as simple as that. I like to study different systems of belief and find great pleasure in attempting to debunk things like this - always have done - and even more pleasure in trying to figure it out when all debunking has been done and has failed. I love the paranormal, but I'm not a woman of faith in either respects. I believe that if I were to give in to and worship a God, I would lose faith in myself, and the freedom to think and do what I like. I'm an immoral person; the last thing I want is to be haunted by imagery of going to hell for sins I've committed freely. The important thing here is that I respect those who believe in God; please respect that I do not.
Last edited: 13 January 2010

Comments 
‹EmoGothChickThatWillNeverChange› says:   19 August 2007   827822  
ok it took me like an hour to read that and im a fast reader
‹C♡C♡› whispers:   19 August 2007   335683  
It took me about 3 minutes.
 
neoeno says:   15 October 2007   286434  
I've read this before.. and I swear I responded in some way... hmm.
 
‹藤原千秋› says:   24 November 2007   196992  
You love Cardcaptor Sakura too??? I love her and that show!!! 
P.S: Who is your favourite character???
 
‹C♡C♡› says:   24 November 2007   695872  
My favourite is Tomoyo, hands down, then Sakura. I like Meilin too
but sometimes she kind of rubs me the wrong way; she's so rude
sometimes XD
 
rinzi says:   28 November 2007   515455  
What is "Lolita"
‹C♡C♡› says:   28 November 2007   421419  
It's a style of dress. Check my club for a bit of info

http://kupika.com/club.php?id=LolitaLovelies&do=discuss
 
toadyy says :   31 January 2010   512809  
very nice your also beautiful

 
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