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Wednesday, 25 June 2014
01:14:20 AM (GMT)
>mom loses my birth certificate >I can't get my driver's license >I don't have an I.D. >I need some cigarettes >stores won't accept any of the I.D.'s I have because they aren't state issued >I'm almost 19 >I have horrible anxiety and need something to calm me down >cigarettes do this well >I don't smoke often nor am I addicted >they are just a convenient method of relaxing >presumably less taboo than cutting >walking 8 blocks both ways to and from the gas station for nothing is really disappointing >I wish the cashier would just give me a break but I understand it's part of their job >it's embarrassing to walk around crying at night and hyperventilating >I'm too scared to ask a stranger to buy some for me or give me one >I wish I didn't feel this way >I've always felt this way >I'm really pissed off that I have to be alive >I'm too tired to be pissed off, why can't I just have a fucking cigarette? >I don't have razor blades either, so what the hell can I do? >I have knives but they are dull >why is my life like this >why does everything suck >sorry for complaining but I am miserable as fuck

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