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Have I gone blind?Category: (general)
Friday, 12 October 2012
03:18:58 AM (GMT)
Have I really emaciated into almost nothing?
Last week, after I told Kaylin that I had a fear of skeletons, 
she responded with "Why? You look like one".
What I did then was do that "self-hug" thing I always do when I get
shy, or nervous. 
Then today, my friend Axel told me he can almost wrap his arms around me twice when
he hugs me.
My voice teacher told me I was small yesterday. 
Miranda Shrader told me I lost a lot of weight since Freshman year and that she
almost
wants me to gain it all back. 
Makayla got angry at me because I "must gain weight".
Fabiola made a comment about how my thighs don't even touch. 
Will said two days ago that he's afraid of hugging me tightly because he's afraid he
might break me in half.
Emma said I looked "breakable" today and that I'm fragile.
Michael the blonde kid told me I weighed like two pounds.
Guys think I'm fun to carry because I'm so small. 
I'm not allowed to sit on people's laps anymore without getting a complaint about my

butt bones poking them. 
My spine pierces the back of my skin if I lean on a wall/chair too much. 
I can poke an eye out with my shoulder bones. 
Collarbones and hipbones are very well hidden though. 
Am I really as tiny as everyone says I am?
I see other girls much smaller than I am, so I can't tell if they're being
sarcastic,
or if I look like them at all?
What about Lindsey, Mallory, Anastasia, Hailey, Ariel? 
I understand they're younger than me by a year or two, 
but they will eventually develop a figure. Their boobs will 
outgrow mine. 
Where's the rest of my body?
Where are my boobs?
My hips are big, so they add some sort of figure to me. 
But still. 
Am I too blind to see what they see?
Something's wrong with me.

Comments 
‹forevayoung10› says:   12 October 2012   635336  
are you anorexic?
 
‹Fairy.Wind.› says:   12 October 2012   682177  
@Marie12kk3 
Oh heavens no. 
I'm possibly anemic though. 
 
youngsters says:   12 October 2012   419886  
you're beyond gorgeous. I get that that's not the point in then diary

but I need to tell you that too. alot of girls think this way. hell I
think this
way about myself. it's just you know what your body looks like though
Your
eyes. but people may have a different perspective. I know I'm the same
way 
too-tiny, short, and I whenever someone tells me 'you're soo skinny' I
laugh 
cause I compare myself to other chicks who have a much better body
than me.
what I do is I just smile and say thanks; but don't let it get to you.
because if you
do you could end up either eating too much to solve their way of
seeing you or 
syarbin yourself because it's some reverse psychology shit. to
clarify, nothing is wrong with you. nothing. the opinions they say
just arent what you agree with
‹forevayoung10› says:   12 October 2012   602711  
@trainer_may 
Anemic? 
 
‹Fairy.Wind.› says :   13 October 2012   417091  
 
 
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