Sunday, 4 March 2012
02:26:04 AM (GMT) It might be long so you don't have to read this.
I've been having these terrible nightmares lately
Make me wake up crying or screaming..
But there's always one that gets to me the most.
This one nightmare,
always replaying
Hurting me emotionally
So basically this is what it is.
In this nightmare, I wake up like I would everyday.
I'll eat breakfast, take my dog outside, ect.
But after that, everything blacks out and I end up at a park sitting next to my
bestest friend in the whole world, David.
We just sit there and talk and hit each other, like play-fighting, as brothers and
sisters do.
As we're talking, something just sets him off..
He starts yelling at me, telling me to get out of his life, throwing things.
It's all so real
I think the saddest part is that these nightmares are the only way i can actually be
close to my best friend, even if he's yelling at me.
Anyways..
The nightmare blacks out again, and I'm back in my room, crying.
I try to text my boyfriend Matthew, but he tells me that I need to leave him alone
and get on with my life.
He tells me never to talk to him again.
I start crying harder and I throw my phone to the other side of the room.
I sit there crying for a while and I fall asleep
I'll end up waking up at a park again, but everyone I truly care about are
surrounding me, yelling at me..
They start getting closer, they start hitting me violently, yelling even louder.
I end up close to death before i end up waking up for real crying and shaking.
That nightmare gets to me so much
I don't even know what to do anymore.. |
