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Sunday, 18 July 2010
04:05:25 PM (GMT)
*sighs* Wednesday of last week when I went to see my probation officer I found out
that my Mom had told the CPS worker that she no longer wants. Yes, i did indeed cry
when I heard that. However I thought that that would be the end of it. I thought that
if it were really true that my Mom would no longer want me I wouldn't have to worry.
I thought that maybe, hopefully, eventually my past with my Mother would leave me
alone. Today I had just found out from my friend who is also my Mom's neighbor that
my Mom was looking for the highschool, so she can enroll me. My Mom says and does
some of the cruelest things to me that make me feel like she doesn't care. The does
something kind; just to take it away with something hurtfull. Plus I have the pain
from the assholes here. I feel like it will never end for me, and if I try to commit
suicide my gaurdians might not be able tosee their grandkids. Plus they already have
CPS on their case because my little baby nephew drowned while in the pool with his
mom. I couldn't do that to them. Why does this always happen to me? I know things
like this happen to other people too, and I hope that their pain ends aswell. It's
just that even a guy I considered a father stabbed me in the back. Gosh, this world
is cruel. 

‹Matthew_blue eyed› writes:   19 July 2010   394458  
O Im so srry bestie
- hugs-
‹Death, Embrace Me With Your Sweet Bliss› says:   20 July 2010   824515  
Sounds like life sucks... but everyone goes though a certin amount of
shit in their life, you're just getting yours out of the way sooner
rather than later. I wish i could help you, but I don't know what i
can do... Please let me know if there is something.
deaths_angel says :   24 July 2010   721924  
lol. thanks you guys. *hugs bck* my mom is reenlisting so i hope
she's ok.


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