Wednesday, 10 June 2009
04:01:58 PM (GMT)
My sister's computer is almost fixed so I might be able to get on later.
Probably not. But I just wanted to say that I am not going to kid around anymore.
People like me for my childish thoughts and my looks. My looks aren't even good
enough, they don't mean anything.
But I miss my best friends Megan and Nick... and Jake (Jake you know I miss you...
>.> but I saw you yesterday so... XD I kinda miss my other friends more... no
I wanted to say that I love you Megan and to say thanks for being there for me
through all my problems. And how i've been there but I haven't helped with your
problems and that my opinion is the only thing you hear but i'm just not a very good
person to come for advice. I can't even help myself but I put you and everyone else
in front of my because i'm just a person and to me my friends are the most important
thing to me. The only thing keeping me alive is when I log on here to these memories
and people... Some good and some not so good but it still carries me on.
Nick, I know that you think i'm drifting away but I am trying to stay here. I
just wish you knew what was in my mind. I know that what i'm saying doesn't mean much
to you and that you will get another girl to "keep you from going crazy". But
seriously I think that isn't true. You just don't want me.
And Matt/Josh/what ever the fuck your name is because i'm pretty sure that you're
lieing about that to. (that would be a long name XD rofl) Stop lieing to me. I
know you're a fake. Even if it was the real you I wouldn't like it anyways. So much
for Mr. Perfect. The one I thought you were. But it is just one huge lie and i'm sick
of it. It's just a joke and I got hurt so much from it that I can't put it in a nice
form to make it sound not as bad.
Simon, (I don't think he'll read this anyways but still :P ) I want my buddy
back. I have no one to attach to. I'm a lonley freakin' backpack. XD rofl. Dude I
miss you, You always made me turn away from all my problems. And even for that one
minute that I read your messages, it was just what I needed to get me back to my old
... I really think that i'm forgetting someone out of this whole love fest... >.>
I'll write a whole diary of who I missed when I get back.