Monday, 9 June 2008
04:35:08 PM (GMT)
there is this girl...if she's reading this she knows who she is.
well...she hurt me pretty bad.
but i think its my fault.
maybe i should of acted different around her. i think i confused her a lot. thats not
what i meant to do. i just wanted her to know how i felt about her.
then ever since then nothing was the same. i shouldnt of told her. she got frustrated
whenever i brung it up. i knew she couldnt love me back. she wasnt that way. i have
this problem getting myself into situations where i like somebody who cant like me
back. its kind of stupid i know. oh well. i tried to pretend that it didnt bother
me...but it did. whenever i was around her i was so happy. she was funny and
beautiful. god, she was so beautiful. but thats not why i loved her it was everything
she was and wasnt. the way she acted. the way she could get me to do anything she
wanted me to do by just looking at me with those big brown puppydog-like eyes when
she asked. the way she answers your questions with another question. but she had a
problem that seemed worse around me. she seemed miserable with me. and i was so
selfish. all i wanted was to be around her or near her. i cant even discribe the
feelings i had...and to be honest still have for her. i tried to get rid of them. but
shes all i think about. we were friends, then more, then nothing at all. we arent
anything now. we're not even friends. thats not the way i wanted to end up...but that
is how it ended.
so now i refuse to love or let anybody fall in love with me...
all i do is hurt ppl...so im gonna save them all from me...
and thats all.