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Wednesday, 16 January 2008
05:48:59 PM (GMT)
I FUCKING HATE MYSELF FOR MAKING MYSELF HURT SO FUCKING BAD! If i was just a normal
fucking person who liked the hot, funny, surfy one stead of the ugly dickhead or
hated the guy who are total fucking whores like i should. If I didnt question
everything and totally confuse myself and everyone around me. If i didn't love
eyeliner and black clothes, if i just went around wearing aqua and white miniskirts
like normal people who are pretty enough not to wear make-up and still look fucking
gorguz. If i didn't look like a slut when i had my own style. If people didnt judge
me on what other people say. THEN i would be a fucking happy preppy slut! and i HATE
MYSELF FOR NOT BEING NORMAL! FOR NOT BEING LIKE EVERYONE ELSE! FOR NOT GIVING A FUCK!
FOR LOVING THE WRONG PEOPLE AND BEING LOVED BY THE WRONG PEOPLE!!!! I HATE myself for
not growing up wanting to be a dancer or a singer, i hate myself for not loving the
colour pink and not obsessing over that blond surfy guy with nice abs. i HATE myself
for not just smiling and being happy, for not being strong enough or smart enough to
handle it.

Comments 
_abc_ whispers:   16 January 2008   886587  
We all share similar thoughts as you
 
xKupidx says:   16 January 2008   963414  
good to know im not a total freak. Thank you.
_abc_ cries:   16 January 2008   383984  
Hmmmmm maybe there are only 2 of us in this world
 
xKupidx says:   16 January 2008   161287  
I hope not.
reyka says:   16 January 2008   111328  
Wow.. I know how you feel .. Are you ok?
 
xKupidx says:   16 January 2008   187539  
Yea i was listening to a Happy song that made me sad O_o.... anywho
and i just felt sooo depressed. But i get that alot. I feel betterish
now that I have been running around my street in my barely there PJ's
in the rain at 5am :PP.
Abandoned says:   16 January 2008   788796  
We are 'normal'.  6 billion people on our planet, everyone is
'normal'.  I wear mostly black and dark clothes.  I have my hair up in
a 'samurai' top knot.  I have a black pattern Hawaian shirt...that I
privately think of as my "Spike shirt" from Buffy (his was all
colourfull).
 
xKupidx says:   16 January 2008   378853  
My brothers name is Spike.... I just wish everyone else just figured
out that im not an 'Attention Seeker' or a 'Fake' i want people to
understand that the cuts on my wrist actually mean something 
Aranee says:   17 January 2008   189497  
apparently.. i share some same thoughts as you. i wish ppl wud stop
asking me n my bf to break up... he doesnt want to but i m starting to
doubt that. i wish ppl in my schl werent so damn bitchy all the
freaking time.. i HATE SCHOOL, its the cause of EVERYTHING EVIL!
 
sugartastic says:   17 January 2008   362817  
I hope you feel better soon. DX
 
reyka says:   18 January 2008   623656  
Dx.. Feel better soon 33:
 
xKupidx says :   18 January 2008   222265  
I hope i will.
 
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