Sunday, 13 January 2008
10:48:23 PM (GMT)
The person that I've been feeding an obsession over has just asked me out via yahoo.
Surprisingly, I checked my mail and found a message from him. He made it about
school, but then we just talked... and talked, and talked. A friend of his told me
that he may have something to ask me... And recently he did email me asking me if I'd
go out with him. After a squealing fit, I told him that I had to think about it.
Immediately I called one of my friends and told her. By the next day, everyone in our
little clique knew about it, including my friend, Amy, who has liked him for a very,
very long time.... very long. Prehistoric long. She apparently wasn't happy w/it,
because she kept looking at me funny at lunch. I watched her look at him all the next
period...I felt really guilty and sympathetic. I am a little torn... If I hurt her,
what would that get me?
First of all, I suppose that you need to know a little about Amy (names have been
changed). Really cute girl, pretty smile, always gets exactly what she wants. She is
sorta the leader of our group, and has always gotten the guy. Whether I liked the guy
or not, she's always gotten the boy. Never fails. She has always been a very
fairweather kind of person to have around, especially w/me. Sometimes she likes me,
sometimes not. She doesn't act that way with the others, but then again, they aren't
a threat to her in any way. And now, I feel so triumphant to have gotten something
finally that she can't get close to acquiring. The feeling is wonderful, until I look
at her. She looks sad, and I feel guilty... then she looks at me and rolls her eyes
and I feel proud and cocky again. We all sit together at lunch and now things are all
quiet, that never happens. The others are tense, a showdown will occur if I say
yes...Waiting until I just go ahead and answer him already. He is waiting too, he
looks around nervously when I walk over to him for any reason.
I know that if I say yes, I will be extremely happy, because I want him sooo bad...
but at the same time, she will be depressed. And for all the times that she's gotten
the boy that I want, I know what it is like. Although, it's exhilerating to finally
have the jewel that everybody else wants....