Sunday, 2 December 2007
01:47:29 AM (GMT)
My situation is not getting better.
Not only do some of my closest friends hate me, but now people I love hate me too.
This all sounds emo, but I swear they're dropping like flies...
The people who are gone from my reach: (Unless they come back...?)
Some people can't tell... They can't tell that I'm faking. My smiles, my laughs, my
(Some people I am naturally happy with, but only a very few.)
The ones that can tell are the ones who have left me.
People I care about are leaving me alone in the dark.
People that I love are hurting me worse.
My life is so lifeless...
I can't pull myself together.
I need something to keep me awake at nights to ward away the Nightmares.
To hide my knives.
To sing me to sleep.
To tell me the truth.
To love me innocently...
So all I ask...
Is that the ones who still believe that I can make it out alive, I want you to
forgive me for my behavior, for cutting, for my emotionless times...
And most of all for my poison.
If you think I can make it... You have a lot of misplaced faith, but I'm glad its
misplaced for me...
Many thanks for those who read this shit, Many more thanks to those who understand.