Wednesday, 12 September 2012
04:12:03 AM (GMT)
I wish I wouldn't get attached to people too easily. Of anything at all.
When you get attached, you hurt twice as much when you lose it.
I'm a leech. I'm a friggin' leech.
And I can't stand to be by myself in public.
It doesn't feel safe and I need to be with a friend or anyone.
Whenever I meet a new person, I tend to get excited because I'm usually
very cheerful when I met someone new. Then
I feel annoying. My paranoia tells me they don't want me near them.
Their actions often do too. So I leave them alone. And I move on.
Of course I'll be here when or if thy wonder what I've been up to in life.
But aside from that, I avoid. I get the hint and I drift.
And that's how I end up in the shelter of my arms and wander off pacing awkwardly.
I'm sorry, Chance. You'll find it puzzling if I don't act like my
usual cheery self. I just don't want to annoy you any more than I already think I
That's how I get even more paranoid.
Why can't I be normal.
Why must I be like a remora attached to a shark.
I'm going to start drifting from people now. Again.